Iam up early for what tho? I wish they had a pot in bed made just for me that way in my dreaming time,I could use it when sleep&want have to get up until later messing with my sleep& I have a hard time getn back to sleep because my mind wake up&start to roam.
Whats on my mind right now let me give you a idea of how anxiety is in my head, I don't know why but she just pop into my head&now a small erry feeln is over my brain thats trying to cause panic.. But I will keep writing until my hands start to feel num,and I start to feel sleepy,there was a 18 year old girl that got into a fight with another girl&over a boy at that.
20 ppl fighting from the start of two girls,friends helping friends fight must became to much for the other girl and her weak mind and loser self. Pulls a harming thing not one with pows but one that could bring harm&it did she puts it in to the 18year old neck&chest&thigh and then in chest of the boy,smh sad a few ppl I know knew her she didn't make it the 18year old. All over something that could've been stop my roaming mind wonders&thinks she is gone now&is she some where thinking she wish she could do it over& have another chance&never had a fight that turn so cold&wrong.
Now the other girl sits in a cell never to see light again in free world all because she was to in lust with some dude,and evil she never should've came with that. How she got it in her hands something sound fishy about
That sounds like more then one person. A person fighting couldn't had that on her because it would have brought harm to her in the fight,so a 2nd person had to had something to do with it.
But no one will ever truely know but God and I just find it all sad and wrong&it has been to much of this evil close to where I live. And it breaks my heart ppl can be so evil&thoughtless,why ppl can't just fight anymore and be done with it&be able to live another day. I just don't get it at all&it makes me sad&think over&over again just how short life is,and then to look on her fb page to see the day before her time to fly she posted a status& my anxiety mind can't help but wonder did she feel something&know some where something was wrong&my heart cry hurt&I didn't even know her.
I don't understand why I feel so deep for ppl I don't even know like that,I call it worry on my heart&I wish I could help the world but I first must help myself 100% to better me for the greater good&then one day I can do my part to help save a nation&help turn/make this world a better place so I keep on praying until then.
Post Edited (SoulNHealing) : 8/9/2013 7:58:22 PM (GMT-6)