Will Start

I kinda know now things that will make me go off into Anxiety mode&I want my mind back 100%,and one by one I will start to rid myself of these things that are not healthy for,me&cause my mind to go crazy at times sometimes real bad&if this mean moving on from ppl who are always down&talk neg so be it. I just don't want anymore stress in my life that I don't need. Iam tired of going up&down&having good days to turn around&have days I want to run from myself. Enough is enough we shouldn't as humans have to always be at war in our heads. And feel like there aint any good around,Iam tired of fear working against me&my fearful mind coming up with how many ways doom can come. I know God said he hadn't given us the spirit of fear ok so why must this be a pain in so many lives? This has to get better 14 years of this,when I think Iam getn better I only end up worse off this is a shame to myself. Because my fears at time keeps me from things I know ppk younger then me who works two jobs to get what they want&need when I want so much and see that one aint got me no where but back to broke same day I get paid&I said this before but never ever again no more. I will be able to get my hair&nails done like I want&be able to shop like I want&just have want I want&still have money in the bank.

I know there is good to life&all the good I can take thats what I fight to see,the good life and I will see it the fighter in me says so and I must trust and stand on his words that he give,when He says Iam never alone please keep praying my strength all. I can take all the prayers that I can get so I can get better sooner then later&thats mind&body&soul to become at peace and fearless and more calm in time of darkness&as I deal with my enemies praying for strength to be wiser& never to fall to a fools level because I know that Iam better&wiser and no stress.