Posted 8/12/2013 5:40 AM (GMT 0)
I always feel like everyone knows when I'm panicking. I think others here worry about that, too.
Apparently, they don't necessarily know we're panicking.
I have a new co-worker (met him Wednesday).
Friday, I was having my typical Friday meltdown. Spent a while in the bathroom crying, went outside and smoked and took a Klonopin. Came back in to the restroom and promptly vomited. Panicked over losing that Klonopin and whether I could take another, decided it would run me short. Cried a little longer. Washed my face, did the mouthwash routine. Walked back to my desk concentrating on each step, sure I would fall. Sat down, trying to work, focusing on keeping my voice steady as this coworker stood at my desk talking to me.
At some point, he tilts his head thoughtfully and says, "You're just so peaceful. It's too bad we can't all handle this stress as well as you."
I said, "I must be a pretty good actor."
He just looked at me for a second and started back talking about our project.
I thought that was hilarious, and might also be a comfort to some of you who get embarrassed when you panic.