Anxiety and self consciousness

Hi everyone,

I'm new here and very happy to find a place like this.

I've been having very uncomfortable anxiety symptoms since last month. It all started with an unpleasant argument with someone from work. That person had feelings for me and I had to reject him rather rudely. After that my calm environment in the office completely disappeared and I felt really self conscious about my decision because our common friends made me feel like I've made the wrong decision somehow. Even though I look all cool and collected from the outside, I'm very self conscious and think too much about what other people think about me and this situation affected me more than I wanted to.

Long story short my anxiety attacks started after my social environment in the office began to change. I realized I didn't like my job and decided to change my environment once and for all and still think it's time to find a better position, but it doesn't happen in a day which brings another load of anxiety to the table.

I've gone through a complete check up after symptoms started; morning sickness, stomachaches, etc., and found out I had a serious case of gastritis due to stress. Otherwise I'm physically very well. Having anti-acid medications and trying to regulate my eating habits, but I can't eliminate stress from my life at this point. I still have morning sickness :(

I wonder if any of you experienced a similiar situation in their professional life and how you got over it/stopped yourself from making the wrong decisions on the account of other people.

Thank you Larry. I'm trying to think like you do, but sometimes I feel responsible for creating this tension and mostly get angry with all people involved because now they cause me actual health problems. I think it's really time for a change and I'm looking forward to it.