I hate to be a broken record but sometimes it just gets the best of me. I worry. I try to put these symptoms in the back of my mind but they seem to scare me the second I pay attention to how I'm really feeling. I know it's probably psychological but it doesn't change how scary these symptoms can be. Today my arms and legs feel tired and weaker but I don't seem to be weak (as usual). I've had tingling and the twitching continues. My worst fear is that I have a disease that will eventually take my mobility. I continue to fear this and yet I continue to move just fine. It sucks to live life feeling like your waiting for something bad to happen. When this starts to spiral out of control the dizziness gets worse too. I am 41 years old and would like to feel as if I have a future and can move forward with my plans. I have been to so many doctor appointments that I feel I have hit a wall as far as getting any answers. I just wish something would click in my head and convince me it's all just anxiety. I know that none of us are guaranteed tomorrow but I envy those who can go day to day without thinking about
it. I've let this consume me for so long and sometimes I think I just can't deal with it anymore. I feel like I complain to much. Could I have had these symptoms this long without progression if they were related to a disease process? I don't dare google anything related to my health ever! Things haven't progressed for the worse but they sure haven't resolved. I don't take an anti-depressant...I never have. I do take a small dose of Xanax daily. Heck...Maybe I just need one right now.... Just needed to write how I am feeling....It helps!
