Posted 8/29/2013 6:41 PM (GMT 0)
I will put this all in one post Ive been off here for some days now&oh how they haven't been easy,but I made it&for that Iam grateful Iam trying to find a peace that no one will understand but me. A peace where I can smile again with truth&days without feeling like I can break down,truth be told life is dealing me alot at one time but I refuse to find a easy way out it is the storm that give me a great victory. And makes me stronger to fight another day,see truth is life will hand us some things that will put us on our knees. And oh boy have I been down many times&the true test comes from how quick we get up,I have been going through days where tears wanted to fall&I didn't know why. And Ive had to take a hard look at my life&I tell you I don't like anything that I see,and it has made me sick in soul&spirit is low&I fight to find a peace of understanding.
Iam not happy&at one point I was to the point ppl could see my happy&hear my happy,but years of anxiety&painc and locked up in fears has torn away at my spirit and some where I did lose who I was&I wonder who Iam now so I made up in my mind I will not keep living like I have. I was ask in the spirit where is your fight&I get it I have been a true fighter all my life,it's what saw me through surgery after surgery&having to deal with grown woman health problems at a young age all this&lost after another messed with my mind&some where I gave in. And thats not who Iam& I must find me without the anxiety,panic,fears,stress,and getn my full mental state back together 100% and no longer let this sickness break me any longer. Iam tired of the stress it put on me&thats why Ive been overcoming anxiety by saying you will not win,by breathing through panic with grace by praying until things break. Iam not weak and I will not let anxiety beat me down anymore PAD will not win,PAD will not win are break me anymore I will have joy&I will be happy with truth.