Posted 9/1/2013 5:23 AM (GMT 0)
My day went like this woke up couldn't breath and I knew it was a bad asthma attack&I knew why it was too,fri night I was in a place where ppl can smoke&oh boy there was some chain smokers in there. I came to learn I had asthma in my late 20s a few years ago after a test was done,because I was seeing a lung doctor&still should be seeing one. But need to find a new one because the old one died and I was seeing him because of a spot on my lungs,still to this day don't know if it was cancer. I with truth just let it go&let God like Ive done with a few other things and I know I should be staying on top of my health,and learning that slowly but when the hospitals&doctors office was your second home from age 5to 16 kinda get tired of going back&forth all the time. But my breathing has got to a point where I can't be around smoke,because it will stop my lungs up&that is so not fun&real crazy because Iam a ex smoker about a pack a day& close to 4packs a week and some days I would make it without them.
Started smoking at 21 around the time my anxiety got extra bad only thing that kept me safe from myself,but as soon as I got word that I had a spot on my lungs I quit slowly cold turkey& in 09I was no longer a smoker&havent been for 4years and want go back. And trust me I so have thought about it but refuse to die from lung are throat cancer&seeing that woman on tv,nope never again will I and will have to watch being around 2Nd hand smoke&may have to start wearing a mask. But I got through the attack by not handing control to it&dig deep&breath my way through it&got back to sleep,only to get up again from a sharp pain in my left temple of my head felt like something was leaking. I deal with real bad headaches off&on to point it feel like someone stepn on my head but never that kind of pain&bad thoughts like you can die from brain/head problems like that out of no where,I said anxiety no not today&said a prayer&got up&went to watch tv. And it to went on away and omg it was a day,but another day I beat anxiety&I thank God for his strength and talking to yourself speaking good to any bad thought can trick your mind&get a person with PAD on a road to overcome 100%. Hope this can help somebody I know the fight is hard 14years of fighting PAD/Depression so trust me I know,and also know we can make it too.