Posted 9/11/2013 3:21 AM (GMT 0)
Dear Kortnie,
I love you and will be here for you, no matter what.
I have been the girl huddled in tears as those excruciatingly long seven minutes ticked by until I could check the results on my pregnancy test. Mine was negative. Then, I cried tears of relief.
I wondered, "How can I try to take care of myself enough for a baby to develop, when I can't take care of myself?" It was during one of my worse depressive episodes as an early twenty-something.
I can't imagine what you're going through, but I can sympathize at least a little.
I didn't mean to further confuse you, if I did with my earlier post. I just wanted to encourage you to weigh your decision carefully. It sounds as though you have and your decision is made.
That decision doesn't belong to anyone here - it belongs to you.
What we're here for is to support you through anxiety and the challenges you face. This is obviously a situation of much anxiety for you - and here I'll be to support you.
If I were there, I would hold you and let you cry. Then, I'd make you some tea or get you a could soda and try to help you calm back down.
I'm not there, so all I can offer you is words, love and prayers. But, you DO have those. Always.
Much love and many hugs,
Joy