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Posted 9/10/2013 3:15 AM (GMT 0)
I can't take these ups and downs. Today was my sons 3rd birthday but we aren't celebrating till my husband gets home. I feel aweful I know he doesn't know but I do. I gave him a couple presents and got a little cake but it still made me feel depressed.

I've been running on a thin line. I'm out of Klonopin and haven't made it to the pharmacy yet so my dad gave me a few of his vallium till I make it. But today I had a sugar binge and felt horrible. Sometimes I can't control myself and I eat a ton of sugary snacks until I feel horrible. So that's where I'm at. And you all know I constantly stress on my stomach and everyone else's.

So to top off my depressed sugar binge. I was outside while my son was playing. Something told me to go check on him (he had a bad accident yesterday). So I went on the side of the house and he was fine but I found 2 diarreah spots and 3 big dried up blood spots. It smelled like something died over there. My dog has been acting funny for a few days but I have 3 dogs. My stomach was turning because of what I found but I checked all my dogs butts and she was the only one that looked nasty. So I took her to the vet. They did blood tests which were normal but they couldn't get a fecal sample. So $200 later I'm sent home with antibiotics and a poo sample container. They said to keep her inside and monitor her eating and drinking. As soon as we get home she squirted under my computer desk. I could barely stomach to wipe it up. Needless to say I threw her out.

My anxiety is through the roof. I don't know whats wrong with my dog and it freaks me out because my son is always playing outside. And he scared me so bad yesterday. He jumped out if the window and hit his face on the table. He was bleeding bad for a little while. I don't do well with blood. I called my neighbor over to look at him. He busted his lip and gum and bit his cheek too. He was a mess.

So I'm just overwhelmed. My anxiety is high. I don't feel well and my dad called to say he doesn't feel good again. He was over yesterday. So I'm scared he had a virus and he was here. Just a bad day. I'm going insane. I don't know how much more I can take.
Posted 9/10/2013 3:30 AM (GMT 0)
That is a whole lot to deal with BKM.:(

Do you notice when you have a lot of other worries, that your big one, the stomach phobia really starts to act up?

This doesn't mean that the likeliness of a stomach issue is increased...if anything it means the opposite, as this is just a response to the other outside stressors.

Your son is okay now. That is good news and something to be grateful for.

You dog will hopefully be back to health soon, as the antibiotic does its job.

You will be okay too. Take some time to do your relaxing and breathing exercises. Make some quiet meditation time for yourself.

All these things together do add up...but broken down, they are all managable.

Hang in there until your husband gets home, and you get some back up! You are doing great.:)

S.C.
Posted 9/10/2013 3:46 AM (GMT 0)
Yeah my stomach does act up when I'm stressed but it starts a vicious cycle. Anxiety = upset stomach = more anxiety. I just turn into a spiraling mess. And my dad made things worse. I can't ever tell if he's got something contagious or what. He's a diabetic with a drinking problem, he doesn't eat well, his house should be condemned in my opinion. It seems like at least 2-3 times a week he has flu symptoms.

And when he comes over here and then gets sick I freak out. I already have too much going on all the time. If its not one thing it's another. I just can't handle it. I wish I had more help. And my husband not being here isn't that big of a deal. I stress over it but his time away kinda gives us a break from all the yelling. But he has more authority. I'm not good at bossing people around and demanding orders. I'm very very passive and quiet which I think aids to me being more stressed because I don't demand any help.

I just come here and bug and whine.
Posted 9/10/2013 4:02 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Mommie, boys sure do get into a mess sometimes, when I was about 3-4 I got into a tree climbing
situation and would climb until it bent over and I hung upside down, once I fell out of an apple tree
and hung my leg in the fork, when my Mother found me I was unconscious, I had trouble sitting still in
school for a few years do to a back tickling feeling. It may be nasty but not many dog diseases cross over to people try not to worry, I know this is you right? Mommie exposure to viruses and germs is how we build up our immune system, if you lived germ free you would die the first time you got a bug, I know they suck but they are necessary. Lady you need a back massage!!!! Peace
Larry ***
Posted 9/10/2013 4:08 AM (GMT 0)
Your not bugging nor whining. This is why everyone is here. It's our own therapy session. Just a lot cheaper. The people on here are great. I wouldn't have made it through without this's ire and the good Lord.

I hope that your day went a little smoother. Maybe try so Dramamine to help calm your stomach at times like these.

I'm glad your son wasn't hurt worse. Kids are so resilient. It's amazing. Sometimes I wonder how my 13 year old twin boys ever made it this far lol.
Good luck honey and never apologize for coming here. Praying for peace for you:)
Posted 9/10/2013 5:38 AM (GMT 0)
I know. This is the only place I can let my craziness out and not feel judged. My husband and dad get tired of me complaining and freaking out and they try reverse psychology on me. Which just makes me feel worse. Or they just get irritated and say something mean to shut me up.

And I don't freak out over every virus or germ. Just the stomach flu one. And I've done so much research on it. There is no immunity to it. You can catch it over and over. Not to mention it takes less particles of the virus than the flu to get sick. And household cleaners can't kill it just bleach mixture. Plus it can live on surfaces for weeks. So yeah it's my biggest fear.

I've been sick bad in the past and I seriously would take on anything then catch that stupid stomach virus or have my kids get it. Out if the many flus I've had I thought I was gonna die a couple of years ago. It started with my nose, then felt like a cold, then came a cough. And suddenly one night in my sleep I was in so much pain. My body ached so bad. I started to run a fever of 102 even with Advil and Tylenol. I kept brushing it off as a cold. I had it for 3 weeks before I went to the doctor. That's when they found out I had pneumonia. That was the worst pain I've been through.

My stomach is in such nervous knots. My anxiety just won't stop. I haven't eaten since I had the cake. Too scared to eat.
Posted 9/10/2013 4:10 PM (GMT 0)
Had Pneumonia when I was in college years ago, it took me a year for all the symptoms to go away,
the worst one was I felt like I was breathing through a wet washrag, I hated it. Peace

Larry ***
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