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Posted 9/13/2013 10:46 PM (GMT 0)
When I try to stay busy and take my mind off of my anxiety, it always seems to make it worse...like if I try to do the laundry or wash the dishes, cook dinner, even watch tv or play with my kids. I am not consciously thinking about the anxiety, but it keeps reminding me it's there. I feel shaky, drop things, just feel blah! The weather is getting crappy and cold too, which I know is attributing to the blah feelings, but man do I feel down along with my anxiety at a constant level throughout the day.

I know it doesn't help that I keep thinking that up until this past April when I decided to work out with the personal trainer and ended up in the hospital was what started all of this crap in motion again. I know I can't change that, but it sure does make me very upset!

I take my medicine, and do coping skills, but it doesn't seem to be helping and I am not sure what else to do at this point?

I tried talking to my husband about this yesterday and he just sloughed it off...he still doesn't get it.
Posted 9/13/2013 10:48 PM (GMT 0)
I am also scared that what if it is something more than just anxiety, panic and some depression? I think of the future and get scared and I need to be here for my children...I get scared because what if I'm not here? Ugh, I don't see my Dr. until the 23rd...
Posted 9/14/2013 4:21 AM (GMT 0)
I can relate to what you say in regards to still feeling anxious at times when it seems like you shouldn't!

It is almost as if we are trying too hard not to feel this way, and then it backfires...that's  all I can figure.;(

It is forefront in our mind that we NEED to relax...and so it doesn't happen.

I don't know if it is the same for you, but I realized this after having bad anxiety in innocuous situations...and none in circumstances where I should have had it!

If it is true that anxiety is created in our minds...then it makes sense that we can easily sabotage our own selves!

I hate to say it, but I think a huge road block for many people is not being able to accept that anxiety, and trying too hard to beat it.

Yes, we talk to beating/fighting/battling anxiety in recovery talk all the time... and we do that for sure...but first we have to accept that it is going to happen, any time and often when its inconvenient, and we are going to have to deal with it, whether we like it or not...and that we don't know exactly how long it will be unitl we ultimately feel truly recovered.

That is a lot of acceptance...a lot of feelings to 'let go of'...in short it is really hard to do!

However, if you can, I really think that it is the beginning of healing and allowing all of the skills to really be effective.

Hang in there...it will happen,

S.C.
Posted 9/14/2013 6:59 AM (GMT 0)
Silky sometimes we sabotage ourselves with our thinking, probably more than we realize, the concept
of sabotage is kinda hard to accept but we have little idiosyncrasy that do it for us, once we pickup on
these things we can disarm them to prevent a setback! Peace

Larry ***
Posted 9/14/2013 5:12 PM (GMT 0)
Cat,

I agree, I have to quit thinking back to April when all of this was the beginning of where I am at now. It really is easier said than done. :( I can accept that I have anxiety, have had it since I was 19, but back then, I didn't have the responsibilities I have today with the house and my kids, etc...

I feel guilty for feeling like this, my kids want to go places and do things, and I am getting back to where I get nervous thinking about going somewhere or just don't have the motivation to go. (And I want to do things with my kids, it's just hard when feeling this way). Such a catch 22.

I feel more depressed than I ever have too, it seems like things just keep adding up...And being depressed scares me more than the anxiety!!

I just want to "want to do things and not give a second thought as to what I want to do". I need this cloud to lift soon!!!

Larry,

I am sure I sabotage myself with my thinking...even though I am not consciously trying to!!!

UGH! Just tired of all of this crap.
Posted 9/14/2013 5:50 PM (GMT 0)
Getting caught up in stinking thinking is so very easy to do as once our mind jumps on the merry-go-round the faster we go with our wild thoughts.  We become frightened and our anxiety sky-rockets when all we want is to feel peace.

We become frustrated as the tears begin to fall while we assume everyone else in the world is feeling good and here we sit with our worries.

I "start my day over after a good cry by washing my face and using everybit of will power" to get back on steady ground.  Don't get caught up in the "what if?" thinking as it will make you feel like you are truly lost.

Get up and do something...............clean, dance, sing at the top of your voice......or maybe sit quietly in silence and meditate.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 9/14/2013 6:41 PM (GMT 0)
Kitt,

What can I say to your reply but, wow...you hit the nail on the head and as I was reading it, I cried a little. I guess we do think that everyone else feels good with no problems of their own. And you, Miss Kitt, inspire me so much because I know you fight your own battles and are strong and keep on keepin on! You are such a strong woman and I wish I had an eighth of the strength you do! You are a true fighter and a survivor and you come here and help all of us while dealing with your own life battles! I love you and say a prayer for you and everyone else on HW in my nightly prayers!!!

Thank you!
Posted 9/14/2013 7:00 PM (GMT 0)
sylknmyst,   Thank you for the sweet thoughts..........you are a winner just going through a tough time   We sometimes hit a hard place, When there's nowhere else to go, A day when storm clouds gather, Our spirits dull and low, It's a place we have to be sometimes, But you know, you will get through, That little chink of sunshine, Will eventually be there to view, So hang on in the bad times, They make us appreciate the good, But don't forget I'm here for you, Standing by as good friends should. Hugs from Minnesota Kitt       
Posted 9/14/2013 7:15 PM (GMT 0)
You have just touched my heart again, thank you, Kitt!! I am going to print that out and put it on my nightstand!!!

Amy
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