Hello,
Good Morning to everybody....
Working in finance my goal is to make sales or at least make a appointment, but my
my ability to do so is limited in that I a seldom allowed to speak with the upper
level executive who has the final say.
So, I can do a good job selling to the person I talk to but it will never lead to anything
because I have no contact with top management, they are too busy in board meetings
to speak to me. So there is no thrill of making the sale or more importantly, the extra
commission I need. What makes me feel worse is that I work for a family member, like
them and wish it was more viable.
It is so funny the way life works. You always take for granted what comes easily.
In my previous work, sales were straight forward, easy and did not have the
obstacle of dealing in such a indirect way. I was happier, had a sense of accomplishment
and not the money problems I have now.
I am waiting on a opportunity from a old contact who says they would like to hook me up
at a place they work at. Since last winter they have been telling me to wait little longer.
as some openings might happen.
Can anyone relate to me that people will tell you to wait and be patient , because since
they are doing fine, so although not on purpose- they can not relate to your plight.
I know , I wasted time when I had the chance and means to do whatever I wanted.
Did not have to anything as I do now to make a living. I was younger and more marketable,
to boot.
So I'm paying for it with all this tension I feel now.
You know when you have the sense that something's not right with this picture?
Well since a year ago, I have shifted to freaking out to not wanting to waste a single day.
I deserve to get something decent.
I am getting in good shape and that is good for my confidence but it will not make me one
cent richer. One of the few comments a counselor I was seeing told me that had any validity,
was she asked me if I was avoiding work when I told her how good of shape I was getting in.
I thought of it after she said it, and at the time I would work out, get a rush from that -but
did nothing else. So not on a conscious level, but in retrospect she was probably right.
That intensity, drive and focus has to be on reinventing myself, making money and working.
Energy is energy, I noticed when I am stressed out from work, job searching I do not have as much
to give to exercising.
But, I am not 16 , no one cares how much I lift, an I need to apply that same focus in other places.
I went to a education open house, a nice older lady was talking about the different options available,
she seemed like she could use some exercise as she was overweight. When we left I noticed she
got into a Cadillac Escalade as I , feeling strong and in good shape , took a cab.
That kind of sums it up, if you know what I mean.
My priorities are straight- now it is time to trust myself and get going.