Posted 9/29/2013 12:57 AM (GMT 0)
I went to a mud run today with my boys. it was great fun but seriously, the whole time i'm concerned if I can make it through without water. it was a mile long and I had a panic attack at the beginning because of a slide where water and mud was being thrown in my face and eyes by the water sprayer and I couldn't see at all. then I started panicking cause I couldn't breathe, then worried about my little boy and him feeling the same. no, he was fine.
anyway, half way through, my throat was super dry and I started thinking what if I need water and start choking like I did 2 weeks ago visiting my gma? ridiculous huh? I think so. everyone else was enjoying themselves but me thinking about this stupid stuff!
I do have allergies right now and post nasal drip but I think the dry mouth and throat aggravated by the antihistamines is worse when I take meds which I think will stop the post nasal drip. ugh! my doc said he didn't see much back there when I was there last week for something else.
the more I try not to think about it , the worse it gets. I think i'm trying too hard. does anyone else deal with this??? I think this has been going on since I had a choking panic attack a few weeks ago and now my gma has died since then. I think this is a symptom of grief and anxiety from her death. I don't want to feel like this anymore!!!!! could this just be anxiety or allergies and the meds?? i'm taking meds and I can still feel the drainage and they are making my mouth drier! I guess I will stop them for a few days and see what happens. right now i'm using a nasal steroid and nasal antihistamine cause I thought it worked better than the oral ones. nothing stops the drip! I know it's coming from my nose and not my stomach like gerd.
how do I get my mind off of this?? last year I had a scope put down my throat for same thing I think. and found nothing - of course. gave me a prescription for the nasal antihistamine.