Posted 9/29/2013 6:14 PM (GMT 0)
I know this must be anxiety are could it be the stupid fact that I just had to have a soda,I didn't have to but wanted to are could it be the meds Ian on for the infection I don't know what it is maybe the fact that I tell my mother I keep having dreams off&on about mansion. And then she says with a smile looking at me maybe you going to Heaven, she knows I don't like to talk are even see yet along speak about death. I don't like dead things I hate death&I will never be friends with it like some ppl are,like the stunt man/woman that risk their lives for big checks to me not big enough are like the fighfighters,army ppl,and police men&women I just couldn't&want then she says after I say every since watch titanic and being at the beach just looking at to much water made me dizzy.
And I said I think of boats going down yes I know I need to change my way of thinking&Iam working on it each&every day&will be looking at finding a life coach this week,I have a story the world needs to hear&I know deep down in my heart God didn't put me here in this life to fear&to be fearfull of things I know this aint it I refuse to except pain is all Iam here for. When God said he want his kids to be happy&would never put more on us then we can take