Worried. Really dumb

Ok. So if I don't have enough worry about germs a Facebook post scared me.

I'm already nervous hearing that the stomach flu season is hitting early and hard again. And aside from being scared if that I'm a very cautious grocery shopper. I don't buy certain things and certain brands because there are some companies that are more recalled than others and I buy butter lettuce or kale other than iceburg, romain or spinach because they are usually recalled too. Plus I avoid organic not only because of the price but because organic is usually recalled too.

Well anyway. A friend on Facebook posted today about how sick she was so I started to panic because if the thought that it's spreading.

So someone else posted that with this whole shutdown thing that the fda is not regulating the food. I'm freaking out. Because even though I'm a cautious shopper I regularly check for recalls. But now I can't. I had fast food for dinner so that's adding to my anxiety.

WTH?!!!!

Where do we turn? I'm not a political person so I don't understand what's going on. And I don't watch the news because I'm home alone with my kids and the news either scares me or depresses me. There's always some psycho on the loose or killings and they can't find the suspect. And just hearing about another cop killing an innocent person. So I just hate the news. I cried the other night reading an article. Some lady had an airsoft gun that was painted and the cops thought it was real so when she refused to out it down they shot and killed her.

So I'm babbling because I'm tired and stressed. But I'm so confused and worried.

Thanks. Yeah I know I shouldn't believe it but it was a news article and the heading photo was a picture of molding bread.

I just get so nervous sometimes. I still got a lot of reading to do 😊 and my dumb butt hopped on barnes and noble late one night and added another book. But I also ordered a panic and anxiety workbook. I read and it had all kinds of great reviews. So now that I'm almost done I'm gonna try and start incorporating meditation into my schedule.

I know wether or not if it's true it's not really going to change much as I'm already cautious. But I just hate it when people post about being sick like someone really wants to hear the horrors if their illness.

Yeah I know. It just seems like when I feel like I'm in control something sends me out of control.

Trust me I'm far from having complete control over my anxiety and panic attacks. I still suffer nightly, but I haven't been feeling I'm having a meltdown. I quit getting on Facebook for awhile because I get tired of seeing everything that makes me panic. So I start getting back on to see what's going on and BAM! A wack in the face with reality.

Ha ha no kidding. They should take smart phones, tablets and wifi with them.