Posted 10/10/2013 2:06 PM (GMT 0)
Recently I seem to be worrying about things and losing sleep. It is same pattern repeatedly: I am worried about something in the evening (usually thinking about nothing but the particular issue, even though I pretend otherwise so that I can have normal conversation with my family), go to sleep and fall asleep fine, and then wake up and cannot fall back asleep. First, it was a health concern. Last night, a work related concern. These seem like things most people would be a little concerned or annoyed about, but move on. However, my anxiety makes me more and more concerned about whatever the issue is, intensely focused on a decision I have to make or a mistake I made or think I made, and then I get so wound up about it that I wake up in the middle of the night and cannot fall asleep again. (interestingly, I never have trouble falling asleep initially -- I just wake up in middle of the night or at 5am). Of course, then in the morning I feel more anxious, with a combination of the issue itself, the increased cortisol, and the lack of sleep. When I wake up in middle of the night, I try all the usual techniques -- slow and focused breathing, thinking about other things and places, etc. None of it works. I am not in therapy or on meds. Was for a time, but thought I "got over it." I'm thinking maybe try CBT. I don't know. Any good, specific suggestions? I am trying to hold my crap together, but it ain't always easy...