janetlee - I had a dentist look this past Monday and he said it is just an abrasion and not to worry that I would be surprised at how fast it healed. It is not healing. I see him again Monday but that seems like a lifetime away right now. I have been on Wellbutrin for over a year now and tried Buspar before the Wellbutrin. I did not like the side effects with the Buspar. I was on Abilify as well but had to taper off that as my new insurance wouldn't cover it and it costs $800+ for 30 pills. I cannot afford anything even close to that. So I take the Wellbutrin and am using Xanax as well.
Teeves - I hope we can both find some time this weekend to be happy. Even for a few moments. Try to find something positive and focus on that. That is what I am going to try.
Thank you for your responses. I really feel that someone cares and understands that I really don't want to be like this and that health anxiety is real to people like me. My family, whom I haven't told anything about this whole thing on the past week, may understand and be supportive but I am too embarrassed to say to them that I have this. I keep to myself. That in itself is a condition that my parents recognize that something is wrong. I'm a big time worrier as well and worry about the littlest things. I have a lot of trouble turning my mind off to sleep so am getting much of that lately.