Relate to my Anxiety?

I have had anxiety since I was 12 years old. I am now 18 and still struggle every single day. Anxiety prevented me from going to 8th grade and high school. I later went on to get my GED and now im a freshman in college with a dream of being a doctor.

I am currently experiencing visual disturbances(things kinda moving or shifting). Legs feel weird and off. When my anxiety gets worse this feeling spreads throughout my body. Almost my whole body feels weak and light. Ofcourse i get lightheaded and dizzy and feel like im gonna pass out. Its not really dizzy though, just weird and "just off" I feel crazy because the feeling is so hard to explain. If you have this just really weird feeling, I can relate.

The worst part about my anxiety is my thoughts. 90% of the day is filled with worrisome thoughts and thinking I have all these diseases or mental disorders like schizophrenia and scare myself into a panic. Anxiety has forced me to turn to meds which turned me into a zombie. To be honest, anxiety makes me separated from the world sometimes, and i just feel like a zombie.

So please share tips with me, or just talk to me, or relate to me, or maybe have a good conversation with me, I need it. I have huge dreams and an amazing girlfriend, im tired of anxiety taking away from my life.

Thank-you for your reply, it means a lot. From age 13-17 I was on seraquil, trazedone, ambien, paxil, benzos, klonopin, lorazepam, and the list goes on and on. Most recently though, in the fall-winter last year about this time, my anxiety got worse, as it normally does this time of year. I began to take Zoloft-50-100mgs. After one month of taking it I HAD suicidal thoughts, felt completely like a zombie. my muscles wouldn't stop twitching, i was scared, everything was just awful. After I stopped taking it I developed Depersonalization disorder and my anxiety was even worse.

After seeking therapy my anxiety lessened and summer came around, which always helps. I volunteer at a bible camp which is my medicine for anxiety. But I am no longer on any medication and have been struggling pretty badly the past two weeks and is starting to affect my schoolwork. I would love to do more CBT therapy but I just turned 18 and moved states which means I do not have insurance right now and cant afford it:(