overwhelmed

I feel completely overwhelmed
Between having an "invisible" disease that is luckily in a mild state but causes me to get very tired when I over extend myself and pain that is tolerable but still there like background noise which I think wears on the body & mind more then I give credit for, I have a very stressful day job and I also have a home based business that takes a few hours a night and some time on weekends to run. For the past 2 weeks the day job has been even more stressful than normal
Add to that a grouchy husband who thinks he's the only one that has a hard life and constantly talks in negatives. Then there are adult children who have various problems, some directly affect me, some just cause the grief & worry of a mom's heart for their struggles and the prayers that they find their way.
To ice the cake my late brothers young adult child with a drug problem has asked to move in and says they have no where to go. They have a sibling but says they fight. I was able to say I'm sorry but it wouldn't work as it would not be an idea my husband would be receptive to as we are finally enjoying an empty nest but now the sibling called and left a message asking if I'm having Thanksgiving (I have an invite out) and if not can the both of them come over another time. Due to the fact that my brother was divorced when they were young and never took me up on holiday invites much when he was alive I never got to know them much. My brother was 10 years older than me and more of a free spirit than me so we weren't really close but loved one another. I love his children as well but visits are somewhat uncomfortable for me because I feel like I run out of things to talk about. As a Christian I am disappointed in myself. I can blame my husband who I know would not have this move in no way no how but in my heart I don't want it either. I just don't have it in me to deal with having another person here when I need my privacy after the day is over to just try and gather myself back together quietly so I can make it through the next day. But I'm beating myself up saying I am the only person from their fathers life they have to connect to. How can I turn them away? How when one has asked if I can help-can I say no I can't? How is it that I pray every day that I am here to serve the Lord and if there is something I am called to do bring me to it- and give me the ability to complete the task but then when I am called to task I'm not willing to take it on.
My anxiety is causing me to awake in the night with all these things racing in my mind. 3 times this week I have had to get out of bed when waking in the middle of the night to take xannax to calm me down.
I feel so guilty
I feel like maybe this visit is going to set me up for another plea to move in.

Weary, what kind of an answer is they fight. this is someone who is closer than you in kinship and he fights
with them, so if he fights with someone that close whats going to happen the first time you have to put
your foot down. These people and I mean drugusers have so far in my life showed me nothing I would want to
live with. Its your home they put themselves in this position not you, and they want to push a guilt trip off
on you for saying no. "Your a lot nicer than I am". Peace

Larry ***

I second guess myself all of the time...I am better at giving advice that taking my own...Lol!!

That is why it is good to have the input of others, so ask away anytime, and know that we are here for eachother!:)

Talk to you soon,

S.C.