Each person is different - the best you can do is work with your Dr. re using meds but taking the meds home and not using them is a waste. Especially if your Dr. is assuming that you are taking meds.
Without trying the meds you don't know if they will help you or not. You should do what feels right to you - I wish you the best and hope you can find comfort coming here and talking with us.
I use medications but I don't push the fact on others who fear taking meds.
I wish you peace,
Kitt