Frustrated with treatment

Started therapy 5 sessions ago wanting help with panic attacks, anxiety triggered by flashbacks of life experiences principally though not exclusive in the work environment. First 3 sessions were intake & in the third therapist was pressing from what my role was in the traumatic experience and my role in creating it. I was fired in a brutal, traumatizing way. I broke down in tears feeling that she expected me to take full responsibility for the way I was treated. The next week I spent hours writing 6 pages to chronicle parent relationship, life experience and sources of anxiety depression in response to her saying I was presenting a confusing picture. I also wanted to move off the intake and on to treatment. I expressed frustration and she said I was unrealistic, presenting blocks and too fragile to deal with the past trauma and might see her for 2 months and not seem like I am making progress . She sees the need to build up my coping tools first. She now says I should be seen 2-3 times a week though I can't schedule this do to work distance.she said that my rationale for picking her for treatment demonstrated that I throw up barriers, which I know I do.
I have felt no better after any of these sessions. Am I being unrealistic to expect some change or improvement?

Thanks . I am not sure what to think. I approached her wanting trauma, ptsd and emdr to try to cut to the root. I am not sure what method she is using. She says I am presenting a very complex case which may explain why and yesterday to me I was too fragile to face the trauma. The anxiety has built up over years to the point that the current level of work stress is giving me weekly meltdowns when I am reaching out for support either from my spouse or professionally. She says that if I don't increase I'll end up hospitalized (I was 15 years ago for 3 days). This I agree with or a more serious outcome. because I work in the MH field now the embarrassment of hospitalization keeps me from readily doing that. It takes me an hr to get to her office from work which is why I can't see her more often. I am looking for people near work but feel like I am just stabbing in the dark finding someone, especially following her comment dismissing my logic for picking her. I am feeling no better off a month later and in fact slipping further. I have a new boss starting in a month and see that triggering a final meltdown, which is why I have been actively seeking help. I just want to feel better.

Post Edited (Jaysak) : 12/22/2013 4:55:08 AM (GMT-7)