Blu,I am sorry you are having such a tough time and would really like to see you setting up a plan of care with your Dr. to address your mental health issues as well as your nutritional problem.
If you are not eating healthy it may be that your electrolytes are out of whack and nutrition would be high on the list of your health issues.
I am here praying for you and hope the darkness starts to lift so the sunshine can warm you, body and soul.
Hugs,
Kitt