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Posted 2/27/2014 2:15 AM (GMT 0)
again

I get so frustrated
I feel so disgusted with myself for letting things get to me
Nothing is major but just so many small things
so I feel edgy
my sleep is interrupted with frequent waking and worrisome thoughts
I use my coping skills and I get over it
but I'm so tired of it
Posted 2/27/2014 4:39 AM (GMT 0)
I get it...

It is great to be able to use your coping skills and all...

...but a part of you wonders what it would be like to just live anxiety free, right?

Of course no one is completely, but there are those who don't have to manage it as part of their lifestyle...ongoing...daily...(hourly!!)

It is good to come here for encouragement. We understand what you are going through. Feel validated and accepted here. Find rest and peace in the fact that you are not alone.:)

I hope that you feel better very soon!!

Thought and prayers,

S.C.
Posted 2/27/2014 8:35 AM (GMT 0)
I get it too...

There are people who, when they think of feeling "anxious," there's almost an excitement quality.

Then there's those of us who when we think of feeling "anxious," there's sheer panic!

I've been coping (and a lot of "not coping") with anxiety for over 30 years. Longer really because I had anxiety when I was younger.

Point is, this is why this forum is a peace temple for me. I can do my "freak out" thing if I need to and my HW family doesn't give me the hairy eyeball or dismiss me. Here you'll always find people who can relate with compassion, understanding and friendship.

I sincerely hope knowing you have this place to come to can take even some of that pressure away.

We've got your back!



M.
Posted 2/28/2014 3:24 AM (GMT 0)
It always feels so good to feel understood-thank you!

Woke up 3ish and got out of bed to divert my attention from feeling anxious. I was able to fall right back to sleep but had a very long, vivid and disturbing dream that lasted until the alarm went off.
The most memorable part of the dream was of having a paralyzing fear of height-and being too afraid to move lest I fall.

I wonder what tonight will bring?????
Posted 2/28/2014 6:03 AM (GMT 0)
Well I hope that it brings nothing but peace and rest!!!

S.C.
Posted 3/1/2014 12:48 AM (GMT 0)
I have never found anything but support, encouragement, resources and understanding here. You can log in 24/7 and there's always someone here. Sometimes just putting your feelings in writing knowing someone who understands is reading them calms down the anxious thoughts a little. Know that everyone's thoughts are always with you and that this is a safe place to be.
Posted 3/1/2014 1:44 AM (GMT 0)
wearyRAsufferer , Early this morning I had a vivid dream/scary dream in which my husband was severely hurt and I could not fix him - I was glad to wake up and realize it was just a dang dream getting in my face and my hubby is just fine. Sometimes the only dreams we remember are the ones we wish we could forget. Nightmares can be instructive, and most psychologists believe that they are a healthy part of life. But if you are plagued by repetitive nightmares and are losing sleep,  changing your daily habits can reduce nightmare frequency. In general, nightmares can be caused by insufficient sleep, poor exercise and diet, and stress.   What has helped me is to reduce exposure to violent images in the media, especially in the evenings. Horror movies can cause lingering nightmares for years. I saw Bates Hotel, the original version years ago and I still remember that nasty movie. May you only have sweet dreams tonight.  It is a small world as we find so many people just like us in this great forum. Kindly, Kitt  
Posted 3/4/2014 2:42 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the wishes for sweet dreams!
Had my physical today with my GP whom I like very much. I think if we met under different circumstances we would have become friends. We have a lot in common. She has a family member who has RA so she knew immediately when I presented and got me right in to see an RD despite month long waiting lists. She really helped me when I was at my worst in all kinds of situations. She still validates the fact that I have RA even though it's invisible to the eye right now.
Anyway- I confided in her about my recent bout of anxiety and how it is causing these sleep problems.
She suggested I try a low dose of Zoloft. 1/2 a tab of the lowest dose and if I tolerate it and I don't see improvement take the whole tab. See her in 6 weeks for evaluation. She thinks maybe I'll stay on it from 3-6 months.
She also said to exercise more (but knew I probably didn't have time- I do 30 mins. 3 x per week but recommended is 2 1/2 hrs. per week)
Also said CBT helps. So I am going to continue with the Mood Gym- thanks Kitt for your reminder of the site.

I don't really like the idea of being on a daily med. I do so pride myself on finding coping skills-but everything is a little too much right now. I have too many things going on at the same time and can't change everything at once....
I didn't pick the prescription up yet.
Posted 3/4/2014 4:19 AM (GMT 0)
Dear weary,

I find are in a similar boat. I too have always been the "rock" and release for everyone and my wife and kids, but this crap and yes anxiety to me is crap. One of the worst things to ever hit me in my life and I'd not wish it on anyone. I too used to pride myself on the fact I hadn't had to go to a dr for ANYTHING in almost 15 years. And now this crap hits me and takes me from the rock I once was to a whimpering little puppy. I wish you the best fighting the crap because it really is debilitating whether it is the insomnia the anxiety or just the crap in general. The HW family here has been great and wonderful and I wish it was more active because like it was said before, sometimes just being able to vent to people that understand and don't dismiss it really does help.
Posted 3/4/2014 6:23 PM (GMT 0)
WRA,

Kudos to you for bringing up what must have been a challenging subject to discuss with your doce. We know it is pretty easy to do here...but in the exam roon, not so much.

It is good that you are seeing that, at this time, you could use a little help to get back to feeling your best possible you.:)

I applaud your strong decision making skills and continued work on getting well. :)

Wishing you the best on your start up...let us know how it goes.

S.C.
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