Bad anxiety today

For the past two days I've felt physically worse than usual. Now I feel slightly nauseous on top of everything else. I feel like jumping out of my skin. I try to distract myself but I can't stop the crazy brain tumor thoughts again. Yesterday I read up on trigger points and how they can cause my lightheadedness. The massage therapist said I have several in places that could certainly cause my symptoms of lightheadedness. Then I read two stories of people who had brain tumors and died and I went down the drain. I'm so tired of feeling like this. Why can't I cope? What happened two months ago that put me over the edge? I just don't think I'm ever going to feel better.

Thanks. When the physical symptoms happen it all seems so real. It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that anxiety is doing this to me. I'm just so scared. I want so much to be well. And I think I'm trying as hard as I can. But it doesn't seem like enough. I envision myself feeling like this the rest of my life. It's hard to remember that only a few months ago things were fine. Strangely enough I broke down crying and it helped a little bit. I'm just going to keep repeating your mantra. And I pray that it's true!!!