Hi everyone,
My name is Joe, am 25 and I believe I have an extreme case of fear of death anxiety. It all started back in October when I was diagnosed with GERD, and on that day I thought I was actually dying and had my first panic attack ever in my life, because you see, GERD makes u feel that there's something getting out of your body, like cold air leaving your body and because I didn't know what was it back then I thought I was actually dying.
Anyway, am recovering very well from GERD however I didn't seem to get the idea out of my head, since then and I have this fear of dying and it's taking over my life. Sometimes I feel I can't breath, I always check my pulse. I feel light headed and sometimes am not able to concentrate at all. I feel that I can't see clearly and sometimes when I think about
it too much I feel that am going to faint or die. Am afraid of sleeping, afraid that I would sleep and never wake.
There was also this guy I knew who died while leaving home, all of a sudden, just died, when I heard this story I had the worst panic attack in my life and I thought it could happen to me today or any day and I have heard about
3 other younger guys who just died of natural causes and everytime I hear such story I panic and nearly get a heart attack and then it haunts me for days that I again feel that I can't see well and the light head and then I sit there just waiting to die.
At some point I felt slightly better when I spent some time watching comedy shows like "Friends" and "30 rock" and stuff, but still when I hit real life I feel terrible again.
I am going crazy. And at the mean time at least for a month or 2 I can't afford a therapist. So I really dunno what to do.can anyone help? :(
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