Overwhelmed and Struggling

Hi everyone. Hope you're all having a good weekend. I've been able to keep my thoughts at bay while at my mums house, trying to concentrate on looking after my niece. Now I'm home, my pains are bad and my intrusive thoughts are taking over. I keep putting my arms up to check my strength and smiling to check my facial muscles to make sure I'm not having a stroke. Deep down I know I'm not but it's hard to stay distracted. I have heart palpitations and it feels like my toes are on fire.

Hubby is snoring away, the pets are asleep and I am struggling to breathe deeply or relax. I have times where I think the Sertraline is working finally but then I have bad days like this where I want to cry and I feel like giving up altogether. I'm struggling to cope today. Guess I just need to chalk it up to a bad day and let it happen. While my family try to understand they aren't really able to help me. Maybe I need to get my journal out.

Thanks for reading this, I'm hoping this will get things off my chest.

A x

Hi Wdw.,

I am sorry that you are having a tough time of it right now.:(

I have said this before, but it bears repeating...

The journey to wellness is not a linear line from start to finish. There are plenty of detours and side trails along the way.

Setbacks happen, but they do not mean that you can't pick right back up from where you left off, and continue your progress.

In fact, you will be stronger than ever before for getting through this rough patch!

Keep up the hope for better days and continued healing!

S.C.

Thank you Paddicake, I know what you mean about having a great day then next day you go completely the opposite way. You can't help but ask yourself what happened. It's very frustrating. I hope you have a good day on a Sunday, hopefully this is just a temporary blip.

Thanks SC, that's a very good point you've made about it not being a straight line start to finish. Maybe if I wasn't in so much pain at the moment I'd be coping better. My painkillers haven't really touched it, hence me still being awake at 630am in the UK. Here's hoping tomorrow is better. I am off to the Isle of Wight to visit my dad next Wednesday until Saturday, just me. He lives about 10 mins from the beach so I thought a mini break by the sea would help me and clear my head.

Thanks again for your replies.

A x

I am sorry that you are in pain.:(

That is can definitely be an anxiety trigger, and make management of both issues harder, as a symptom/anxiety cycle starts up.

Do your best to rely on your coping skills at present!

I hope that you have a wonderful visit with your dad! We just went to the coast last week for a wonderful day relaxing at the shore...it is very theraputic!

Much healing!

S.C.

Wdw, To put a smile on your face: ★ ¨`*• ♫" I called my doctor on the telephone Help me Doc there's something wrong I can't shake it it's gone too far He said tell me what your symptoms are I said my hands are sweaty and my knees are weak I can't eat and I can't sleep It's turning me every way but loose He said it sounds like love's got a hold on you No doubt love's got a hold on you" ★ ¨`*• ♫ ♫ . ♥ .•* ★ ¨`*• ♫ .•´*.¸.•´ ♥ I could not resist sending this to you as what you describe sounds like my GERD symptoms.  Have you ever been tested for GERD?  I am not a Dr. but you know this right? " I have intense heartburn that started after I had breakfast. I think I will have to give up having Marmite on toast. That seems to trigger it lately. I am burping so much and at times it feels like something is stuck in my throat. It's just not going, I may have to send hubby out for some heartburn meds." Check out this link from our own GERD resources: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=45&m=1483795 I hope the warm bath works and how about curling up in your cozy bed for a bit with your favorite radio station serenading you. As you may have guessed I am a Country Music fan. Lottsa Hugs, Kitt

Thank you of the link and song Kitt, it did make me smile :) hmm I wonder if it could be GERD. The heartburn lasted most of the day. Hubby ran me a nice hot bath, it eased my back pain a bit but not the rest. I will be going to bed soon. Our kitty is going to the vet tomorrow to be spayed and I'm having my haircut at 11.

Merrida, how funny about the marmite - I expected to be asked what it was lol. I love it on toast for my breakfast but the last few times I've had it I've had heartburn. Oh well, I will have to go back to having porridge. I will speak to my doctor about the heartburn and all the coughing I'm doing when I see him next week. Thanks for all your help.

A x