SK,I am sorry about your Dad and I do understand why you are so distraught.
I have been having a bit of a tough time the last 6 weeks and the other day I recommended a book for someone when it dawned on me, I had never read the book myself.
So I ordered it and it came yesterday and after reading 1/3 of the book I realized I was finally understand what it is like to be in the moment, the now.
Practicing the Power of Now: Essential Teachings, Meditations, and Exercises From The Power of Now Tolle, Eckhart
Today I am practicing something I always thought I knew how to do - staying in the moment - however, this book is teaching me what the power of now really is. Thinking about
buying this tiny book and keep reading and rereading it until you understand what it really means to be in the moment. Prayers for you Dad and keep on talking with us - we care.