Ok I lied.. anxiety full force for the past three days. Scary heart palpitation.

Well I must have jinxed myself when I said my anxiety has decreased since I've been pregnant. The past three days have been horrible. ): I just had the longest heart palp/flutter I've had in a long time. It scared me so bad I started crying,was so upset it made anxiety worse. I am waiting for the day they completely stop haunting me because this is SCARY. I can't think of any other tests I can have done. Maybe another holter monitor, one that stays on me the whole time instead of me trying to catch them because they have been too quick for me to catch. The one that I just had would have been perfect for a holter to have seen..maybe get some answers. It was right after I ate. I know my blood and heart is pumping harder due to pregnancy, and maybe it was even harder because I had just eaten dinner (healthy of course,I'm pretty good at eating healthy) and have a full stomach. Every time this happens I get all disoriented and feel like crap for the rest of the day. I am tempted to go to another cardiologist (would be #3), and once and for all get a dang answer! If I have to live the rest of my life with these, I am going to be one miserable person. They(my pcp and cardiologists) have all told me they are not dangerous, how could a disruption of your heart rhythm such as these flutters not be dangerous!?!? I am not convinced of it. I am still shaking because it scared me so bad! I feel like my heart is just going to stop the next time it happens and so I wait and wait for the next time it happens, scared out of mind!! I've done everything right, ate healthy, exercised, except I did smoke for a few years but quit a few years ago, I am at a healthy weight I'm active, I just don't get it. No one else around me gets them, why ME!?!? No one else around me has anxiety, WHY ME!? I'll never understand it. I don't feel I deserve this, it makes me really sad, and depressed. I'm always scared it's going to happen again,I never have a clear mind of it! Had a 2 hour long panic attack in class yesterday, I had to leave. Scares me for when I start my career in a few months. I fear I am not going to be able to do this. I just feel so unhealthy because of this and it's ruining everything, my happiness, my life, it affects it all. Any advice on what to do about these or how to live with them and be happy or how to feel "normal" with them, would be appreciated I cant seem to be happy anymore because of them..I feel I am going to drop over and die any minute, like the doctors are missing something serious. Ugh.,, ):

Have a great night everyone xx

Lacey

Lacey my wife us to do what you are doing, she's a life time
PAD sufferer, when she was pregnant the baby moving could
cause her to think she was having pvc's, just maybe its the same
for you, I Pray for your Peace

Larry ***

Lacey, Excessive worrying causes stress and anxiety, it can affect physical health and it can stop you from participating in rewarding activities – excessive worrying does you little good…and a whole lot of bad. Fortunately, you can choose to stop worrying so much! Though it may take a bit of effort, you can retrain your thinking so that worries don’t cause you such distress. One way to do this is by writing a worry diary. It’s difficult to rationally analyze distressing thoughts as they dance and swirl through your mind, but by writing them down on paper and tackling them with a structured set of questions, you can find the truth - and you can usually stop worrying about what’s not likely to occur. A worry diary is simply a notebook you keep to record – and challenge – your worrisome thoughts. People who use a worry diary to challenge the validity of their fears tend to obsess less about the worst case scenarios and focus more on the reality of the situation. By doing this, they experience a reduction in negative emotions that accompany persistent worries. I keep an online diary and write in it when I feel my anxiety ramping up - I also write in it when I am feeling good so I can look back and identify what makes me feel good and what causes stress. I hope this is something that will help you. Kindly, Kitt