Posted 5/17/2014 7:09 PM (GMT 0)
Hello,
Hope you all are doing okay, as always.
I typed a entire post, only to lose it when my device died.
Anyways, part of the reason I do not post really as much anymore,
is that personally, besides the repetition in my thoughts, I find that I
was doing much contemplating, and little action.
But here are a couple of thoughts that I will offer, and if someone else
benefits , good.
Yesterday I went to a work seminar where the expert speaker, was saying how not working caused someone to off themself and others and also shared other negative thoughts.
I know that the realities of this, and am no shrinking violet, but came away from the thing feeling drained and negative.
I might have stated this before but - it's easy being anxious, having anxiety, however you want to put it, too forget who you are, what you have done, etc...
In the past year despite taking more action, I find myself in much worse
financial shape than ever. Despite making real efforts , instead of now
having a little stability and reaping the benefits of my work , I am still not going anywhere.
To cut to the chase, it does not make sense, where as in the past
effort would equal reward , this time it went nowhere ( although it
was not most viable), and I wound up doing something after it ended
that I did when young for peanuts .
My point is that that sometimes it does not all add up.
So much of life is the fact is that you are what you think you are,
and feeling anxiety it's easy to forget this.
Excuse me if this is something I have said this before.
Another subject, I want to say that xanax is a dangerous med and though I am on a moderate dose, doctors should be more prudent
when prescribing it, very addictive, and causes more anxiety.