panic yesterday. ugh

Hi HN!! :) (I was just wondering about you the other day!)

Congrats on your new job....and glad to hear that things have been going pretty well in general with your anxiety.

It sounds like this is an anxiety symptom that is related to your emotional state...

For me, interpersonal issues are a huge triggers!

It just seems that when you are feeling upset, this little physical reminder pops up...as in yesterday, when you son was being less than nice...or maybe just the anticipation that he could start acting in a rude manner...that could be enough to set this off.

I am glad that you were able to keep yourself calm, and not have it turn into a full panic episode...well done, that is progress!

Keep up the good work. Hope you and your little one are enjoying the beginning of Summer!

Keep posting!

S.C.

I have had it when I feel like I can't swallow. I know that it is purely pyschological...but is seems like for a couple of seconds that I can't make myself swallow, as if it's physically impossible.

This is probably very similar to what you experience. We all kind of have our own unique 'pet' symptoms...

Learning to just kind or roll with it and not let it de-rail us is key...and it sounds like you did a great job of that!

Have a great rest of the weekend!

S.C.

Hazel,

So glad to know your new job is going well.  Yes, I have had the sensation of not being able to swallow and I know for me it is anxiety.

SC mentioned interpersonal relationships - this is one I have major issues with.  I have come to believe that I set myself up by expecting a visit from one of my children to be the most wonderful thing in the world and when I am not left feeling spectacular I am disappointed in myself and question why things turned out just normal.

When your son acts out and is rude, you take it to heart and of course you would, you want love and respect from him.  However, what we want from our children they are not always willing or able to give us.

Today, give yourself the consideration and kindness you’d extend to the people you love. All the goodness you put out into the world starts with how you treat yourself. Love yourself first, Hazel.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

 

Hazel,

No matter what age a person is they can revert back to acting like a "naughty child".  Your older son was wrong so let go of the what ifs and do not  expect this older son to follow through on something important such as the safety of your younger son.

Your son will not get away with acting out in the service................

You are a wonderful Mom - anxiety on the other hand is a nasty feeling.

Hugs,

Kitt

yes kitt he doesn't act out there. he just graduated from air assault training.

I go to his graduation and when I get there some people are standing around together - a few civilians also. he sees me and says "go inside and sit down." no hi - no hug. nothing. I was so upset. mind you, he had been taking cold showers for 10 days and eating hardly anything and had just done a 14 mile ruck the night before with no sleep but still. I think I deserved more than that. I just don't get it. he was doing wonderful without a girlfriend. now that he has one again, he's turned into mr hyde. and he will be 21 in a few months. that I dread. his dad was an alcoholic for years and so was my dad. I hope he doesn't follow down that path. when he was in school full-time and working 2 jobs, he was doing great. not that it's summer, his college job ended and he quit his other fast food job cause he hated it and is taking one college course. all I can do is pray I guess.

thanks - yes it is very stressful and hurtful.

i wonder if it is my gastro dr. i should be seeing about this. my co-worker said she gets this also alot and they just stretched her esophogus but she still does it. i just had a scope and nothing was mentioned about it. i just hope the ent doesn't numb my throat again. that was horrible when i had it done about a year and a half ago. ugh