Dread the new work week

Ugggh
The weekend went so fast and now I am dreading Monday.
At least it is a short week but....
Neck issue is not absolutely debilitating but is uncomfortable which was predictable per spine specialist. Said the pain might come back day 3 or 4 after the shots but should be gone by day 7 to 10.

Old boss emailed me and when i told him how I'm feeling at work about not feeling like I can handle things -gave me the vote of confidence and said it sounds like I should take some time off and show everyone what it's like without me there.... Said I can't do everyone's job there.

I wish i believed in myself more. I am going to try and take new bosses advice and go ahead and close my door when I feel like I'm having trouble concentrating. I wish instead he would understand that I have taken on duties that the old boss had which should be his. His take on it is the old boss was doing things he shouldn't have been responsible for. Well...maybe he shouldn't have been responsible for them but it's not because I should be responsible for these things. My plate was already full. With vacation times I have had to cover for 2 people as well as take on these new responsibilities and I am at wits end. One person took 7 business days early June and 7 business days late June. The other took 5 business days in June (thank God not the same week as the other) and is now taking 2 more 2nd week of July. Meanwhile I am beating myself up for not getting everything done.

I have to admit I have some things that are my responsibility that are unpleasant for me to take care of and I have been putting them off with the excuse that I do not have time. I really do not have time and I was feeling so ill with that neck issue that I was giving myself a break saying I can't concentrate to get it done correctly so why try?

I really have to accomplish this early this week- it is imperative. I should not have put someones elses work ahead of my own. I have let it go so long that now I feel lost - I should have done it when the issues were fresh in my mind. Now I am struggling.

I know I will feel better when I have put them to bed. I hope & pray I can get it over with. I am feeling so overwhelmed. Every time I think I'll get it done something else crops up that needs immediate attention.

Awww crap. I better just go to bed and get some rest.

sending heaps of strength your way wras. post was a bit big for me tonight. vision sucks at the moment. but i skim read. sending healing thoughts your way.

Thanks all for your support, kind words and pep talk.

It was another crazy day but I made it. I found my voice a couple of times and when people tried to pull me into their problems I said I'm sorry I just can't do it all. When my assistant so rudely buzzed me while my door was closed on my lunch hour to ask me a non urgent question I said I'm on lunch and did not answer it. I was working thru my lunch as it was taking care of that lingering project I need to put to bed- could I not just have peace and quiet! Then to top it off she asked for 3 more vacation days this month. Thanks-just what I need- cover your work again!

Got a lot done on the project today. Will feel so good when it's complete.