Falling back into anxiety

darn...was so proud of myself. Been off paxil for 3 months now after 2 years...but the health anxiety is back with a vengeance..
I feel like I've been punched in the back and that pain is causing me to worry so much. Been x-rayed, ekg's and all the fun stuff but now I'm again convinced that there is a problem. It used to be my heart, and kinda still is but now I'm moving on to embolism. And of course went on WebMD to further convince myself.

Didn't help that I drank too much on Saturday night, was completely hung over yesterday and still feel the affects today. Which in my troubled mind is not due to drinking but my "heart issues".

I had a melt down on Saturday when my son took off on me in Walmart. I cried & cried but think I needed that release. Then my daughter did the same thing at the cottage the next day and again, I cried & cried...

Work is stressful and my kids are young and a handful. I worry so much about them seeing mummy not feeling well. right now I'm debating whether or not I need to go to the ER about this back pain...but on the other hand know that it's totally in my head. Maybe I'll go home and go to bed with the covers over my head.

Thanks Stkitt....it's amazing how quickly you can fall again. This forum is a God send for times like these. I took an Ativan & went to sleep for awhile. Was ok when I first woke but it's creeping up again....

Reading the posts really helps that you aren't the only one & not alone in the daily battle.