Posted 7/23/2014 11:11 AM (GMT 0)
Hi there I have joined this to become clearer and hopefully get some advice what is up with me,going back 4/5 months ago now things were going great,I had a full time job and I was studying graphic design,I've always been a confident character in public so lack of confidence has never crossed my mind,and for the record yes I do like to drink alot when I go out etc and smoke cannabis now and again,I mean its not the worst possible thing right ? anyway back to the point,all the problems really started when I split up with my ex a few months back,it wasn't that serious but it really knocked me and I lost alot of trust too,that week I had a busy schedule in work,sometimes you just got too bite your tongue and get on with it,so I did just that,until one shift it was a fairly quite morning with little customers around,I was feeling upset and stressed from the break up,and there was alot going through my mind,but I tried to battle through,30 minuets into my shift I started feeling spaced out and detached from reality if that makes sense,almost like I wasn't there,suddenly it became busier and I just coudnt handle it,I just wanted to get out of there and the more I thought about it the worse I felt,so I left work that day,this has never happened to me before and being an over thinker I looked online etc to see what happened,im guessing it was some sort of panic attack,anyway since then my confidence has been destroyed and im half the person i use to be,I just want to be normal again,its hard to talk to friends because they don't understand what im going through,I have been watching stress relief videos before bed and that helps to some extent,im also exercising alot more,but I feel like I could have some form of agoraphobia now,if anyone could give me some advice that would be fantastic,thanks