I have been living on black licorice. Luckily no doughnuts or anything like in the house. & I don't leave the house, so no burgers either. I got the licorice on-line (thru the mail). I am not on any meds., except Ambien for sleep. Even w/ it, only getting 4 -5 hrs. a night, & broken up by just 1 or 2 hrs. at a time. I have tried 3 anti depressants over the years. None worked. & gave up because it seemed like most raise your B/P. My depression comes out strongest as anger. I stripped my husband bare/shredded him w/ my mouth, over & over, & he left me. We didn't even make it to our 5th anniversary. Because his 3 daughters now hate me, am sure we can not reconcile. Which breaks my heart. It is my 1st marriage, his 2nd (w/ his kids mom over 30 yrs.). I could not reconcile the amount of time he spent w/ his middle daughter. She is also married, but the way I see it, her husband is for sex only, my husband does all the rest (mechanic, babysitter, all around handyman,.........). So I resented him doing all that for her, while things in our own home went undone. This daughter was nice enough to tell me that yes my marriage is over, & I am the worse thing to walk this earth!!! I have never felt more hopeless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And alone!!!!!!!!!
Post Edited (ShariBB) : 8/11/2014 8:10:22 PM (GMT-6)