When I'm anxious about something, it paralizes me.

I said this the other day in the workout thread...

"I know some have probably said this before to themselves, but at the moment it sounds crazy that anyone has said this to themselves before. I thought to myself, just go check the mail. No, take out the garbage, yes thats what ill do. Annnd, i just lay here. I looked at my legs and said" move, get moving" and serious as a heart beat all i could manage to do was wiggle my toes."

The anxiety and fear paralyzed my legs, that day. I have since told others about it and they just dont understand. You can see them try, but they just dont understand, not just that day, but the whole anxiety thing period. Heck, I cant either! I mean, if anyone took a look back at my life, they would find someone who always took charge and lead. Not a daredevil by any means, but someone who always took risks. My jobs over the years are the some of the most dangerous anyone could face. At one point, years ago, me and a co worker broke into a burning building to save a families dog, with no fear for our own safety. Not proud by any means, but ive been in bar fights being outnumbered 4 to one. I am the first one in line to stand up and protect you from corruption and evil.

And that day, I couldnt move my legs, out of fear of getting active over non existent heart issues due to GERD. I just shake my head in confusion. How something so simple can escalate to something as debilitating as this.

I totally relate. It's where I am right now. I can't think. I can't and don't want to do anything. I could just sit in a chair all day and do nothing but obsess over my health and anxiety. It's so hard but you're not alone.

Anxiety can be so paralyzing, in many ways, but yours seems to be literally "paralyzing". It's not weird though, as anxiety brings on so many strange sensations it's just amazing what our minds can do to us. My cousin went completely blind for over three months when her one year old daughter had to have open heart surgery and there was NOTHING wrong with her eyes according to the doctors. Eventually, when her daughter improved, her mother's eyesight returned. Amazing. So don't question the results of your anxiety, we've all had some very strange ones. Rather, do all those things that are suggested on this site and realize you can and will get better. I have been to the lowest lows over the years....even began hearing things at one point yet I finally improved and couldn't imagine ever having anxiety again. Now years later I am once again going through it and it's still not fun. But I do understand the things that are happening to me because of it so it gives me some hope knowing it will pass eventually.