i can't seem to find any pleasure

i feel like i drag through every day, just doing what needs to be done, sometimes grudgingly, and don't seem to find anything to take pleasure in. except maybe eating.

speaking of which, yesterday i ate a whole box of cookies after getting to work. this is the 2nd time this has happened. afterwards i felt a little sick to my stomach, but worse in my feelings. i just felt sad and like i was all

just wanted to check in,

love,
rich

Oh RICH,
Guess what i ate box of french cookies which are poison for me(as i have diabetes)and it felt so sugary and sweet but in 10 min i realized what i had done and felt horrible .

eating is no pleasure for me ,i eat just to survive and some days i starve and BS levels are horrendous .
i think to myself uncontrolled BS might even kill me .

i don't find anything worth living for anymore too,but still here .LIFE IS precious so i am going to make it .
its forbidden fruit is sweetest..

chips and cookies for me --no more my secret ...don;t tell anyone .

Rich you must have missed my post some time back on me raiding the fudge rounds, I'm not even talking about the regular sized fudge rounds these are the big ones, I believe I ate 5, 6, 7 or 8 who knows at this point, and it was during the night.

I hope you get to feeling better, it just sucks not finding pleasure in anything, I can understand that. But at least you don't wake up with a half eaten fudge round embedded in your hair