I'm freaking out really bad

Ok. So I had a surgery 2 weeks ago to get my tubes untied. I don't want anymore kids. But I really blame having my tubes tied has caused me severe pain and suffering these past 3 years.

I haven't had a good recovery. First pain with urination. They said I may have got a UTI. And was put on antibiotics. It didn't feel like a UTI. It felt like pain from a catheter being put in wrong. I switched antibiotics because the other one made me really sick. The same week all my kids got hand foot mouth disease. I had to do some serious house cleaning with no help right after abdominal surgery. I then told my husband I felt like I had pnemonia. He brushed me off for days. After he went to work I went to urgent care and they said I had a lung infection and put me on another antibiotic. I felt better so I stopped taking them. I had enough with taking antibiotics 3 in about a weeks time.

So my delimma. I know I've posted many times about my phobia and I'm sure your all sick of hearing about it. But it causes me severe anxiety and panic to the point I can't do anything because of it. Well I also suffer severe ibs. I get constipated for weeks at a time. But since I had surgery I seriously been going 2 or more times a day and it's urgent. I woke up with my stomach hurting a bit today. Brushed it off and took my puppy to the vet to get shots and dewormer. As I was waiting the cramps hit me and had to urgently use the bathroom. I don't do that away from home but I was trying to wait but I was sweating profusely. When I left my son texted me he needed his paper airplane for science. I went home and got his airplane and left. Then the cramps hit again and I was shaking and terrified I was going to throw up. My biggest fear. I made it home but immediately had to go to the bathroom. It wasn't normal. Now I'm completely freaked out. I'm so scared I caught some kind of stomach bug. I don't want to throw up. I don't want my kids to get sick. I'm in a panic storm right now. I feel like I'm going crazy over this. I was suppose to take papers to a school for my son but scared to go anywhere. I took a klonopin and I feel high from it. Yet I'm still worried.

Thanks. I know. I try to keep that in mind. I feel like I'm catching something else too because my sinuses are messed up.

Right now I'm really stressed out and angry with my sons school over truancy issues and their not our fault. He was there. I went to talk to attendance today and she was really rude to me and even threw the threat of jail at me. I wish I could just remove him but he kinda wants to stay.

BKM,

I understand. I have that feeling of fear and dread when I know me or my daughter has been exposed to the stomach virus. We just went on a cruise this Summer, and it was in the back of my mind the whole time...

I hate to hear that you are not eating.:( This actually will work against you in the long run. You need your strength and immunity working for you! Even if you were to get sick, having an empty stomach isn't going to make a diffenence....and you will be too weak to get well fast.

Chances are, you are all going to be fine. It is not that easy to catch a stomach virus...it's not airborne like others can be.

The fear of it is often the worse part, I know, so I my heart does go out to you!

I am sending my best thoughts and prayers for you all today. Let us know how you are doing soon.

S.C.

Hi Bakomom,

I know there's not much I can say to talk you out of this, because I have been in that same emotional state, SO MANY TIMES! :) I used to have everyone who walked in the door use hand sanitizer. If they wanted to be near my kids, I had them wash their hands. I even kept face masks on hand for visitors to use who had been around anyone sick in the past few weeks. Lol, SERIOUSLY.

So I feel for you for what you're going through. Sounds like you're pretty upset about this right now, and getting sick is a scary thing! The only thing that eventually made me feel better about sickness is that we have been blessed with a society that has great medical advances.

My therapist and I had a LONG string of sessions in which I finally realized that even if my kids and I were to get sick (and we have), it is not likely going to lead to death. We will all be uncomfortable and feel icky for a while, but the probability is that at the end of that sick time, life will resume as normal. The doctor's and hospitals can also help with the symptoms: nausea medicine for the nausea, pain medicine for the aches, and saline for the dehydration.

It's so sad that sickness is a part of life, but it is great that there are medical advances to help us all through.

You are a good and loving mom!!! Just one that has anxiety. It is okay for our kids to see that we have struggles. We are human, and as such deal with issues that challenge us.

The important thing is that our kids see us working towards getting better...using our strengths and skills, and witnessing our daily efforts to do our best!

Again, sending you postive thoughts of wellness.:)

S.C.

I's okay...

You needed the rest I am sure!

I sometimes get anxiety nausea too. I have had it often enough in fact, that it isn't a trigger for me anymore...I just roll with it, knowing its origin, and that it will pass.

You will get to this point to I bet.:)

Sleep and rest...and know tomorrow is a new day that will hopefully find you feeling better!

S.C.

I took everything I had to calm my anxiety and stomach. Now I'm high on my meds, tired, non stop eating to stay awake, wide awake bratty kids. I sure hope that nausea doesn't come back.