Posted 9/5/2014 2:01 AM (GMT 0)
Every month it is the same ish and Iam so sick of it the darn rollercoaster ride I go through, two weeks before it start and the days of I mean darn I truly don't understand all the heck we women have to go through I should have on all black from sun up to sun down because Iam truly emo around this time and maybe one say I will have true peace and joy on earth .
Maybe I will have control over my dang mind sooner than later and just maybe one day I will be able to get up, and anxiety free ,stress free, border line bipolar free maybe soon I will be able to not over think everything and have the right help given to me fighting to see my good and my peace. I've a right to it shouldn't have up and down rides, it is unhealthy I want my latter days to be greater and I speak to the God I was raised up to know and my grandmother put 100% trust in and I ask to begin to show me Iam truly not alone and to start sending the blessings I was told chilldren of the most highest one deserve right now more than ever I need to see every word shown true. I don't like this place I keep slipping back into, and feel like mentally I need to be restored, has anybody ever been emotionally drained and so disturbed and shell shocked by the scars and damage anxiety attacks leave fearful of reliving that much fear to the point you can't think straight. PTSD on 1,000 and I feel like it is time for a vacation from everything.