Posted 9/12/2014 9:04 PM (GMT 0)
Hey everyone, it's been a few months since I've signed onto here but I'm still alive!! I've just been so busy it's been so hectic and I'm
So exhausted (32 weeks pregnant w/baby#3) . I've been struggling to deal with my anxiety and depression and panic attacks,etc. I'm. One week away from finishing my internship for medical assistant which means I'll be d.o.n.e. With school finally after two years. I've actually been really proud of myself for dealing with my anxiety and depression without taking any of my meds... But enough is enough! I don't think the anxiety and attacks will ever go away especially now being under so much pressure in the mornings getting my kids to school on time and myself to work on time being so tired and exhausted I'm beyond stressed. I'm thinking that after all of this (school and internship) that having such a hectic schedule with myself and kids that it's not what I want to do because it's no good for my mental state. I'm constantly panicking crying depressed then I'm happy then from one feeling to the next and it's interfering with my life (as usual) pretty bad... And after all the heart tests and this n that with my heart that gave good results, I still feel as if they are missing something wrong with my heart. I don't feel that I should be having these flutters /palpitations as much as I do.. I'm constantly worried about my heart it's driving me insane! It can be very scary at times! And bothersome other times because I can predict when it's going to happen. I start feeling funny. Another anxiety I've been facing is new to me... It's like a separation anxiety from my kids.. It's not them it's me!! I feel like something is going to happen to them Every time I leave them with someone (always family if not school)to go to work, or when they're at school, etc. anytime they're not with me I'm in a constant worry mode,which is pretty much the whole 45 hrs a week that I'm working (on my internship). Is this weird!?! Ughh these two things have really been affecting me along with everything else.. I'm ready to get yet ANOTHER cardiologist's opinion because I don't want to drop over dead from a misdiagnosis or something gone undiagnosed!!! Good ol anxiety, what am I going to do with you!?!?!?
Hope everyone has been doing well on here!!