PTSD Here we go again

I am working on relieving my anxiety caused by an extended illness. I ama dance teacher. Over the past two years I have had several horrific experiences teaching dance for a performance and being terribly ill. I am over the physical illness but now the PTSD is kicking in full force. I start a two week dance residency tomorrow. I am not teaching dance today but I am already a basket case worrying about if for tomorrow. I am breathing, walking, taking my meds, thinking positive thoughts, Any other ideas out there? I love the students and the process of teaching, rehearsing and performing. In the past, it has been a really fun time for me. I have been doing this kind of work for years. I am very angry with myself right now. Unfortunately, I have no appointments this week, therapist, acupuncture or PT. I am on my own.

CD,

It truly breaks my heart that you are angry with yourself right now:( But I totally understand, as I have been mad at myself when my anxiety has gotten in the way of something I love and SHOULD be able to do. I have a lot of anticipatory anxiety, like you. i think the only way to reduce the anxiety is to keep performing these "tasks" and start trusting in yourself that everything will be okay. Something I'm learning to do is to be nicer to myself. Congratulating and being proud of myself when I make it through seems to help me too.
Have a good day CD. We all believe in you.