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Posted 10/15/2014 4:40 PM (GMT 0)
I am getting worse. My anxiety is increasing as is my depression. I had to return home about an hour or so ago in tears. I couldn't cope. I called my clinic and I can't get in until Friday at 11:30 am.
All I want to do is cry and feel like throwing up and screaming.
I am so scared. I feel like a little girl lost and alone.
jl cry cry cry cry cry cry
Posted 10/15/2014 5:04 PM (GMT 0)
Janet

You poor thing! I know exactly how you feel!

Is your husband very supportive? Hopefully he is. Allow him to wrap his arms around you and let you cry on his shoulder. Tell him how you feel and get everything out. Just talking about how we feel can be therapeutic and healing.

I would encourage you to start a small project (laundry, clean house, organize closets or drawers, etc) to get your mind off of the pressure you are under right now (if you just sit and dwell on your feelings than that could make it worse). And then take yourself a hot, bubble bath. Turn the lights down low and light a couple candles!

We hear it all the time but "this too shall pass". I truly want you to be happy. Remember that "happiness doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means that you've decided to look past life's imperfections". I think I saw that on a shirt one time but I have never forgotten it!

Sending healing prayers and thoughts your way!

Cornell
Posted 10/15/2014 5:23 PM (GMT 0)
JL.,

So sorry that you are feeling unwell. We are here for you.

You know, calling a friend that could come be with you right now would be a good idea. (husbands are okay too...but a friend may be even better sometimes, right?  Being single has its challenges and advantages!!)

Can you keep calling to try to bump up your appointment? Perhaps they will get an opening...and you can snatch it up?

It is so frustrating to hit these unexpected rough patches!!

We all understand, and are here for you. Post as much as you need to...and know that we are keeping you in our prayers!

Healing hugs,

S.C.
Posted 10/15/2014 5:31 PM (GMT 0)
When you said that you called the clinic, do you mean GP or psych? Are you working with both? (Forgive me, please, if you've already mentioned this,....I've been MIA a bit and am still trying to get caught up with everyone!)

I agree with S.C.....if you're feeling pretty low, and it sounds like you are, are there some friends you can be with, some people (or person?) to visit you, or place you can go so that you don't have to be alone?

I know so many of us have been there too, feeling so scared, lonely and alone, feeling frightened. That's one of the good things about our Forum Family here: We've been there, we get it, we understand, and of course, we're here for you when you need us!





M.
Posted 10/15/2014 5:53 PM (GMT 0)
I'm living with my Mom (always have). Never married.
The clinic is my mental health clinic. If only they would give benzos as needed! :(
I feel like wringing my hands and pacing the floor. I have no appetite. My Mom is supportive, but it is hard on her to see me this way...so it is hard for me to let her see me this way.
jl
Posted 10/15/2014 6:10 PM (GMT 0)
Janet what has caused all the anxiety lately?
Posted 10/15/2014 6:57 PM (GMT 0)
I don't know....
BTW, they had a cancellation. I go in at 5 pm today.
jl
Posted 10/15/2014 7:03 PM (GMT 0)
Whoo Hooo!!!

Get er' done JL!!

Way to snatch up that opening!

Let us know how it goes?

Thinking of, and praying for you!

S.C.
Posted 10/15/2014 7:31 PM (GMT 0)
Janetlee-

I'm so sorry you're struggling. I know it feels very scary and isolating but please know you're not alone and we will support you. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone, you can email me and I would talk with you!

I wonder if it's possible you're sad and feeling stress over Kitt's condition... If I remember correctly, you had a close bond with her. Her illness in it's final stages has rattled all of us and it dawned on me you might be taking this hard because you two had a special bond.

Just know we are here for you and I am saying a prayer right now for you.

Sending love-
Lisa
Posted 10/16/2014 1:23 AM (GMT 0)
I went in and told the NP what all was going on with me. She did bring up therapy again, but I admitted to her that i am afraid of it b/c I did it for years to no avail. She feels that something is going on with me and I told her that I am quite honest with myself about things that are worrisome to me, in other words, I don't try to deny my fears from myself. I am naturally anxious about Mom's job ending at the end of the year. That's not only a big adjustment, but another chapter of her life and mine is closing. And ever since I was a very little girl I've been afraid of losing her. That's NEVER changed after all these years!!! And with her getting older, well, I know that must weigh on my mind...but I can talk about it until I'm blue in the face and what is that going to change?! I used to talk about it years ago too! :(
And then there's my menopause and this time of the year possibly affecting my feelings as well. Anyhow, I'm afraid to go digging up bones and perhaps just make my anxiety worse!!
So she has prescribed me Viibryd. I've been reading up on it and it's a bit of a wild card. I couldn't get it tonight b/c medicaid didn't approve it automatically, so now the pharmacist has to call first thing in the morning to try and get it approved! I felt like crying!
So I don't know what time I'll be able to start my first dose tomorrow!
Thanks everyone....
janet
Posted 10/16/2014 1:30 AM (GMT 0)
I'm so aggravated- why can't you get a little prescrip for xannax? Menopause is a *****. A prescrip for xannax goes a long way for peace of mind. You don't even have to take it knowing it's in your bag. A half goes a long way in taking the flipping edge off.

Don't worry Janet- what you are going through is normal-please try explaining it to a GYN.

You're in my prayers
Posted 10/16/2014 3:23 AM (GMT 0)
JL,

Sending you encouragement...and best wishes on getting and starting your new Rx.

Praying this is the break that you need!

I also encourage you to consider therapy...

...even if it did not do much for you previously, we are constantly changing, and this time around it could be completely succesful. A new therapist can make a world of difference as well...lots of factors can change!

Just something to think on.:)

Hugs!!

S.C.
Posted 10/16/2014 8:17 PM (GMT 0)
The medicaid still has not given the go-ahead with the Viibryd...I took my prozac as usual.
I feel with all my heart that if they would allow me some xanax as needed along with the prozac, I might very well be okay as weary says. I recall some years back when a substitute psych allowed me a script of it and it did wonders for me! I was able to stay on my AD of the time for a lot longer. Now all the clinic wants to do is say that the AD is not working, so try this instead. I feel like they're gambling with my life and are running out of ADs to use.
Very scary.
janet
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