Need Some Reassurance

Hello! This is my first time posting. I just really need some reassurance right now that I'm not the only one who feels this way. I had my first panic attack a year ago and went to the hospital as I was just beyond terrified and scared. I started having them regularly after that and another couple of trips to the hospital. I had all kinds of tests done and everything is fine. I ended up changing my living situation as I was living with a roommate and it ended badly. This past 3 years have been really difficult and I was diagnosed with PTSD a couple of years ago due to a traumatic life event. Soon after changing my living situation I met a wonderful man whom the past almost year has been amazing. I'm now in a stable and wonderful relationship with my boyfriend of almost a year. I moved in with him about 3 months ago and everything has been great! We have plans for our future and he is the best man I could ask for. I never thought I'd have this type of relationship given my life history. However, my anxiety and panic has started up again really horribly and I don't know why. I've had numerous attacks and this past week I wake up scared and depersonalization and a strange surreal feeling. I describe it as everything feels to real and not real at the same time. I'm hyper aware of everything in my body. Any kind of sensation or feeling just sends me into panic mode and I worry about everything being life threatening. I constantly look up symptoms online. Past few days top of my head on the left has been feeling weird and today my left eye was twitching a little so of course I have been obsessing all day over it. I currently feel like something is wrong and I'm not ok. I'm so scared. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm so afraid something is medically wrong with me all the time. My boyfriend started his degree a couple of weeks ago and he had previously worked from home and I do freelance work and go to school twice a week, so we were spending the majority of our time together. I'm now stuck with just myself for hours and hours of the day and my mind just keeps racing all day thinking the worst. I literally go to sleep this way and wake up scared. I can't quit shaking and feeling horrible. When I go to do errands and go to class or to my freelance work. I "white knuckle it" so to speak until I can get through it and get back home so I can panic without freaking out in public. I don't know what to do anymore. I try deep breathing and positive thinking. I just can't quit feeling scared ALL THE TIME of almost every minute of every single day. Please tell me I'm not alone and that I'll be ok.

Hi BL and welcome!

I am sorry that you are currently experiencing this anxiety and symptoms! I have been there and understand.

You have received great advice above from LS and I echo her remommendations!

Here is the link to the Resources here that she mentioned:

https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206

Try some of the suggested coping techniques while you are in the process of seeking help for your anxiety management from your doctor and/or a therapist. Practic them daily, and you should have good results.

Keep posting with us as well for support. We care and understand.:)

Scaredy Cat