Bad start to the day.:..

I have literally been awake all night and now that it's morning, I'm feeling anxious and tense and like today is going to be all about anxiety. I did as my doctor said and took a xanax so that I won't feel so consumed by the anxiety, but it just feels yucky. I'm supposed to take my son to a baby gym class, but I just want to stay home with him and cuddle up on the couch. I don't feel like putting on a happy face and getting all showered to go hang out with the other mom's. I'm just not in the mood. I don't think it helps that it's that time of the month for me.

And this no sleeping thing... I think it's alcohol related. My husband and I shared a bottle of wine that my parents shipped us from Napa, with dinner last night. I think alcohol ruins my sleep, which in turn pisses me off, because I don't even enjoy drinking that much. I'm praying that today is low key and that tonight is a better night!

Whine (or wine) all you want

Now you know alcohol is a trigger for feeling bad & you can prevent that by abstaining.

I don't know what the weather is like where you are, but it's grey & gloomy here in the Midwest (NE Indiana). I was supposed to meet my MIL for lunch but just cancelled. I do have anxiety driving to where she wanted to meet, but mostly I just want to go lay in bed & chill with my dogs. Thankfully she's understanding.

I give you permission to stay home and chill if that's what you want. You've had no sleep and that, on a good day (meaning no anxiety), is hard enough. Maybe you can nap with your little guy today.

Sending you peace today!
Lisa

Thanks everyone. I decided to push through and shower and take him to baby gym. I'm having lots of heart palps this morning but I have a feeling that's because the wine dehydrated me.

I have a girlfriend coming by this afternoon who I haven't seen in years so I felt obligated to get cleaned up and I felt guilty about not taking Parker to gym class since we just laid around and snuggled yesterday too.

I'm in the Chicago area, so it's gloomy and gross here too. The weather doesn't do anything for my mood, I'll tell you that.

Thanks Hibee! I think you posted this recently or someone else did. No matter what I do in a terrible sleeper. I've been on Ambien for years and sometimes even that doesn't help. I think it's just been a stressful month so my sleep is extra out of whack. Hoping for a major improvement soon!

Haha! Cornell, Ambien used to make me do that stuff but then I adjusted to it. I used to get packages delivered and have no idea what they were. Turns out I was a big online shopper!!