Posting again cause I need it off my chest...

Sometimes I would be willing to give it all up, to live the life of a panic free person. I have a wonderful husband and a son who is the light of my whole life, but sometimes I think that if God came down and told me that I could trade everything I have today, for a life free of anxiety and panic attacks, I would do it.

I had an attack out of nowhere today and I'm still kind of in it right now and it was awful. I became short of breath, my muscles were already tight from my awful workout yesterday, I became lightheaded and felt like my whole body was leaning to one side and then I just became overwhelmed with fears. Am I having a seizure? A stroke? Obviously I know I'm not because I can sit here and type this, but it's what I was feeling. Now I just feel the icky, I can't breathe feeling.

It crushes my heart to have thoughts of would I trade it all, but sometimes I feel like I would. Sometimes I think I would give up this whole life, for a new one that was free of panic and fear.

I just needed to tell someone....maybe you guys know what I mean.

Hey, I've had those strange "leaning" feelings! Me too! I've always described them like it feeling from its origin, first as if someone is sucking my brain out through a straw and then from there, down, everything feels tilted.

On another note, if you're deconditioned and your trainer gave you a little too abrupt of a startle to your system with a new workout, it's absolutely and totally normal to be feeling wonky (official term) for up to 72 hours afterwards. So nope, all is well, you're not losing it!

I would mention this to your trainer, however, to maybe take things a little slower. Also be sure to do the homework they prescribe for you to do, on your own, in the gym, between that first appointment and all of your subsequent appointments. That 'between-appointment-time' is soooo crucial to minimizing those feelings you're describing going through right now!

I know, I know,....just add it to the list, eh? ;)






M.

I know how you feel- I would sell my soul to be free from this anxiety!

Thanks, Mom. I guess today was just bad. My body feels all out of whack and I just cracked up. I hate how panic makes you feel like a yo-yo!

Chronic, it's a tough battle. Especially when there are kids involved. I think it makes us even more desperate!