Does this sound crazy?

I have been feeling a little better the past couple weeks, still having plenty of anxiety, but better. My symptoms seem to be shifting a little, and this is usually a good thing for me. But I have been in this anxious bout for about 6 months now and I am wondering if it now feels weird to me NOT to be anxious. Like, it feels like the norm to me to feel anxious and when I don't feel anxious, it now feels abnormal. Im sure it's just something else that I will have to wait out...ugh, more waiting. Just wondering what you guys think? I know a lot of us have been struggling for quite a few months. Thanks:)

Oh I know exactly what you are talking about. When I start to feel good, it's so unusual that I just keep waiting for the next anxiety to hit and because of that, I probably bring it on myself. I also wonder if some of us subconsciously feel like we deserve to suffer....I don't feel that way on a conscious level but then why do I always slip back into anxiety when I've been feeling relatively well and content? None of it makes sense to me but I just wish I could appreciate the times I do feel ok, and not "expect" something to happen that will take that all away. Ive said it before and I'll say it again....we are our own worst enemies.

Yes!!! I'm totally the same way- but only this year have I ever noticed it (likely bc the struggle has been going on so long this year). When I feel normal & relaxed, I'm on edge waiting for the shoe to drop bc God forbid I feel normal for a day?!

I'm still in the "self awareness" mode of checking my emotions. Again, I've never done that before this year & assuming it's bc the suffering has been more lengthy than anytime in my past.

My guess is that with more "normal" under our belts, we'll get back to "normal" & get used to it again.

I still feel like on the edge of a breakthrough, I just don't know what it is or how to fully explain it. It's like there is something I need to learn and it's in my path but I can't see it just yet?! Does that make any sense at all?! lol!

Sending love-
Lisa

Here is a weird parallel that this reminded me of...

I have known two people now who had ridiculously high blood glucose levels due to mismanagment of their type 2 diabetes.

We are talking BGL's in the 300, sometimes 400 range for a prolonged period of time.

When they both started to get their blood sugar in line to where it should be (in the 100's) they felt absolutely awful. Strange/off/weak/dizzy...you name it.

This is strange considering that they had gotten to healthy levels...

...however, their systems had not adjusted to what they were experiencing currently, vs. what they were used to for so long.

This is could be similar...just on a mental level, no?

Give it some time...let feeling good become the new norm for you....gradually.:)

S.C.