worst night.

last night was my official worst night in a long time. it started of with anxiety, over thinking, scenario stuff. then panic, then full blown panic. showers, breathing, cognitive self talk did not help. were useless. burnt incense played calming music, nothing. when night came i was too scared to go to bed. i was scared to death of sleeping, i went on the couch and had the telly going. i had the lights out, albeit i could not get calm, the thoughts were whirling. after awhile i get up and post. i ring my fiance, she was out, i leave a message. it was 4.53am, i rang my psychiatrists office. i rang him 2 days earlier. i leave a detailed message as requested, i let him have it that i need help. my partner calls later. we skype,that was lovely, pure heaven. we leave and hour later shrink phones. smack on 8am.

i give him one with the lot in the most erratic matter. he got it. long story short we are going to do some mirtazapine at night, low dose and some prn low dose valium, valium will be for a few weeks only until the mirtazapine kicks in. got appt with my gp tomorrow. shrink is heading o/s for a bit, thus i have to see my gp. he has sent a communique. i advised him that my gp does not prescribe benzos. this is firm, he said he will advise him that we need him to do the script as will be away. i hope i don't get a lecture from my doc. and him pointing to the no benzo sign. i'm not up for any bs at the moment.

so got gad and panic disorder. officially dx. have made an earlier appt to see my therapist. had a dec appt but i need a chat so i asked kindly to see him earlier as i am not coping. thanks for caring.

I'm there with you Happy Turtle....had what I thought was a fairly good day yesterday, low level anxiety and feeling ok going to bed. Then woke up this morning and within seconds the heart started beating wildly, fear of heart attack or stroke - or complete collapse right on the floor with my poor unaware son sleeping in his room...will he have to scoop me up and bring me to the ER...just crazy thoughts that wouldn't subside. Took meds immediately upon waking (Xanax and Toprol) and after a little while heartbeat started to slow down a bit but I'm still left with the concern "is this going to happen every morning for the rest of my life", will I some morning really have that heart attack or stroke I'm worried about, will I now be afraid of going to sleep at night for fear of what will happen in the morning....what if's, what if's just screaming through my brain. It's a good thing this forum is here because I run to it each morning that I feel like this and it does give some comfort, especially when I see that others suffer this same fate. Maybe I'm not the best one to give advice but I would take your calming meds right upon waking up to assure you that these feelings will calm within a few minutes. I wish you all the best in getting your med issue worked out.

Hi HT

Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time I have a diagnosis of GAD and know how debilitating it can be but you can get through this but just take one small step at a time and you will reach that light at the end of the tunnel. I take Mirtazapine 30mg at night and find it helps me to sleep so I hope it works well for you with regards to your Valium prescription if your psychiatrist is contacting your GP I would see that it won't be any problem getting your prescription. I hope things start to improve for you soon and know that we are always here to support you.

Hibee

Turtle,
I am so glad you are getting to try out some new meds! I am hopeful you will get some sleep, my friend:)

HT,

I'm sorry you had such a bad night!! It sounds like it just went on and on and I'm sorry for that because that is just the worst!!

I'm glad you're getting on some meds. Hopefully that and seeing your therapist will help you out.

Hugs!

H.T.

So sorry my friend. That was a rough night to be sure!!

I disagree with the 'not coping' statement however. ..

You ARE! I see so many positive steps that you took to help yourself!

In just a short time you:

used great skills, reached out and called your medical heath professionals... and got them on the same page I might add!!

These are all going to bring about good recovery progress from this current challenging time.

Have hope! Is IS going to get better. ..and I know you have the fortitude to duke it out with this anxiety bugger!!

Hugs and high fives:)

S.C.

How HT- sorry I have been pretty much absent so not supportive of you. Hope things are easing up for you. As of late I feel like I belong more on a depression forum than anxiety. Hence my lack of participation.
Be well my friend- I'm wishing you all the best

Ouch what a night.. So sorry for your bad night. One positive thing was skyping with your fiancé. I am hoping that you have some better days ahead.. Good luck to you my friend..

My dear friend

I can definitely relate with you about having a bad night! Both of my thumbs are numb as can be from where the handcuffs were too tight.

Hang in there..... I'm here for ya!

Cornell

good night last night, awesome actually. 3 hours then b/room. then 7 hours straight, and then 3 hours more. AWESOME. keep up the good work mirtazapine!!!!!!!

it was exciting news for me, thanks; i posted on a few forums, but not verbatim.

  More of the same...more of the same!!!!!

Wishing you more of the same success as last night!!

Fingers and toes crossed for you.;)

S.C.

I'm sorry your feeling so bad. It's good you are going to try some new medication. I hope it helps. Try some chamomile tea before bed. That may help calm you down.

Hang in there!!