Posted 11/15/2014 7:53 AM (GMT 0)
been busy all night actually. i trued napping today. didn't work. urinating all day as well as night. i am going with it as much as possible but i am expletive over it!! when you have not slept properly in years it just stuffs you totally. i mean, depressively, cognitively, spiritually, emotionally etc. i am doing my best with the pain stuff, nocturia stuff, anxiety stuff, fear stuff & expletive medical stuff. sorry i am now venting. i am tired. it grinds you. embracing it i have done for years now, the tv thing, the on-line thing, the reading thing. i can't anymore i am just too wasted. i mean i push hard. but i am fragile. i am ready to break into a thousands of pieces.
i hope i am not sounding like a whinge or a broken record but my mind and body can't cope with too much more. i don't like using this word but i will and do HATE this.