worst night.

cheers SC. you are the treasure, i'm just a stubborn stalwart. WEARY is kind alike you. and alike you, and me, realists. that's my feelings. i am alike WEARY flailing my sword to the bitter death. i cleaned my house today. no idea how i did it but i did. am proud. i got the respirartory doc in the morning. going to discuss ysing a cpap. going to have to hire one. way tooooo expensive. i might moan and groan a bit, but like you SC and WEARY and others on the forum i am a fighter, have been all my life. i have got through some expletive real hardcore stuff in my life. i only know one way, and that is one foot in front of the other. i might get smashed but i keep getting up. if i hadn't early on i would have been gone from thid world maany years ago.

i am ecstatic i found hw. it sort of found me. we are sort of married. it is a working relationship. just like me, a work in progress. geez i have gotten deep tonight, i do that every now and then. life is just too short for bs and drama, hate, inuendo, etc. 'slow and steady wins the race'. i didn't come to be the happy turtle to not go backwards without my shell for protection. on wards, striving, never say die, yeah moan and groan, get down, vent and even rant from time to time but this is constructive. i guess i can show that i can write more than a few lines!!! i do surprise people.

ps. i have written a few more poems on the bi-polar forum. 'for the bi-polar crew. i think 3 more, and i am proud of them. i hope you guys have a look. might start a little book. these i will print out soon. soon i will start a vision board. hibee has inspired me as have some others. i have a clear goal and i aim to reach it. no iffs butts or maybe's. well i should shut up. i love you all. thx for caring my dear friends. and for reading this.

Wow- turbo forum makes me search to seek you out HT! But search I will as we need to lean on one another right now. I was raised to be an overcomer. Like you sometimes I've found that the only way to keep going is to put one foot in front of the other. It works. We'll get out of this funk HT- we will.
I'm going to go check out your poetry.
Wishing you sweet dreams....

SC- thanks for your kind words and well wishes for us! You're the best!

Hey HT-computer was acting up last night- swirling on the clock- screens wouldn't load. Felt like hurling the bloody laptop through the window.
That said could not access the BP forum nor your poems.

Just went there now- wow- I really enjoy your writing. Deep & heart felt- then Mystical Mushroom Men - what a trip :)

In a bit of a RA flare. Think it was brought on my stress and depression. It's 7 year Anniv this month on the 13th. Hands feel broken and warm-slight swell. Hips and knees acting up. Fatigue. Sometimes fatigue is a good thing because it causes sleep without effort.

How are you sleepng?

WRAS...glad you are up and running again! Computer probs are the worst. Sorry to hear of your flare.:( I am sending positive and healing thoughts and prayers for you today!!!

H.T.

Haven't had time to check out your poetry yet...but will get there soon. Mystical Mushroom Men?!?!

one word...

Intrigued!! ;p

Talk to you guys soon.:)

S.C.

Last night I fell asleep by thinking of MMM :)

i will write them down soon. thank you. frozen worlds is a special one.