just stuff.

Thanks SC- I wish you could scare this pain off!
It seems to start around 2 PM and peaks at 5 and continues on thru the night. Usually better in morning and then the cycle begins again

HT- I'm East Coast US. We have quite a time difference. I used to converse with a fellow RA sufferer who lived in Oz. There seemed to be a small block of times where we were both awake. My daughter lives in the UK. We skyped tonight but we hung up when it got to be midnight there....

I've had worse pain...but this is getting old. I think it is stress related-it causes me flares. You are right. I push myself to the limits. Not only do I work full time but I also help my husband run his business. Both by checking our email and dealing with it while I'm at my day job but taking care of all the clerical and financials in the evenings. I have to hit the wall before I stop. Even during my worst- the onset of RA when my hands were like claws and I could not grasp a pen- I was on oxycontin without relief....if you look in our checkbook you will see big sprawling crooked entries as I paid the bills. Yes there were a lot of math errors during that period....

However- if I had the pain you have plus awaking all night long because I had to use the bathroom...that would make me snap.

I have that voltaren- it's not mine but it's here. Think I'll slather some on and see if it helps. You can spray pain reliever on on top of it?

I think it's tomorrow there in the afternoon right now??? Hope tonight brings you rest.

Really great job in meeting your challenges guys and pushing through!!!

It humbles me, because in a lot of ways, I have things pretty easy when I step back and take a look.

My admiration goes out to you both. You are heroes in my book.

Hugs and high fives.

S.C.

Wow HT you really got a lot accomplished! I'm amazed at your stamina especially on so little sleep. Thumbs up!! Hope all that exercise makes you sleep sound tonight.

SC- you are the one to be applauded. I just get thru life. I haven't offered a bit of compassion to anyone but HT lately because I can commiserate with him-we are alike. I'm ashamed of myself but I have nothing left to give to the rest of our members.

You however- during your busy stressful life have kind words and good advice for all. Even coming to this post daily to offer us two recluses encouragement and compliments to us. Thanks much- I appreciate it.

I've been having problems at work again. If I can refresh your memories got a new boss after 12 years and have taken on old boss duties because this one doesn't feel it's his place to do certain functions, plus letting other people slack which causes me to have to pick it up because my clients will be adversely affected if I do not, this causes me to work OT that I am not compensated for because I am salary and now my support person is going out for elective surgery for 4-6 weeks. I have expressed the fact that I cannot do the work of 2 people for that long a period of time especially when we really need another person since we went from 1 shift to 2 and I was told we will look for a temp but that was mid Nov. and nothing is done. I keep bringing it up and "they are working on it" I don't think it's fair that this person is allowed all this time for "elective" surgery but I am told if it is something medical we cannot say a word. Meanwhile this person is saying it's a personal matter so it cannot even be discussed. So today I told the boss that this is affecting MY health. That since this was sprung on me I have not been feeling well and I have been stressed out that there is no temp in place and that who knows if the first one will work out and if it gets too much later and the person is not trained it will be more of a hindrance than help. I was told that he would not take sides? And that I need to keep the emotion out of this?
I said I'm at an all time low of happiness working here. Do you know what he said? He said- well if you aren't happy I can understand you wanting to look elsewhere and I will help you however I can. I will give you a good reference. I didn't say I was looking or planning on looking elsewhere! Am I wrong to be offended? I said wow- I can see I am valued here. He said everyone is valued but if you aren't happy I'm saying it's your choice to go somewhere you would be. I said I really don't know what to say. He said I don't know what to say either. We stared at each other and then he said- I think this conversation has ended. I said Oakey dokey and left the office.
This is what I deserve for all I've given?
I know he's an effing a-hole. He hasn't a clue of what will happen if I leave.
God please give me the strength and guts to call his bluff.

omg. people. sorry weary. sucks. know that i am thinking of ya. sadly i too have been there. i have flipped the bird once or twice and left, then that leaves ya in the ****. bugger. i hear ya, put in and bust ya tail and get dirt kicked in ya face. makes me angry!!:(

cleaning catching up. told off a mate. he needed to hear it. luckily i don't know your bosses number. boy i'd give him / her a spray!!! i'm in that mood. healing thoughts i send.

irritated mood. yaRGH. hi everyone. sc. weary. better now-but here's one we done earlier!!! lol. got a few hours of sleep, better than a kick up the pants. listening to pink floyd. nice and chilled. got a coffee going, be nice with some single malt whiskey!! i am singing wish you were here with full voice. be good, or really bad at being good!!!! cheers.

:) cool.

I would like to say IIIIIIIIIIII have become comfortably numb... but I am not. I am complete keyed up and my home life is stressful too.

How much can one woman take?

nice sc. good lyrics in learning to fly.

hang in the weary. when i am on-line too long it reminds me of flying to see my lady in the uk, ya butt gets numb, but not comfortably!!! that's cattle class for ya!!!

there are so many classics,

shine on you crazy diamond, the machine, but a big favourite is the track money.

and for the purists, see emily play. with syd barrett on the keyboard.

we all age. sadly. keep holding on. this is when ya got to dig deep. keep fighting. never say die. you are strong.......here for ya. sending healing thoughts your way. will check out new track. heard something about a new album. cool.