Posted Yesterday 1:41 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Roxy, for the reassurance. Glad to hear, because you know how we like to doubt and worry "what if". As for how long I stay on, its funny you ask that.
My anxiety started in 2007 when I was having trouble trying to conceive and taking a boatload of hormone injections, so I attributed it to that, taking about 6 months in total until I found the right medicine after spending months trying to deny it was anxiety and swore it was something physical (seeing 3 gastro doctors for the stomach jitters, 2 endocrinologists for my dizziness/nausea, etc). Then after only 4 months on it, I weaned off slowly and never had any problems other than about 2 weeks of slight lightheadedness (for those who hear its hard to get off- it wasn't bad at all if you go very slow).
Then did the same thing the next time, getting off after only 6 months, thinking I felt better and didn't need it, but the anxiety came back a year later. The third time I did the same, only staying on it for like 3 months and after weaning off the anxiety came back in about 4 months.
So I finally realized (or so I thought) it was coming back bc I never gave it the time to set in since you always hear you have to do it a year or two. So I said I will do it this next time for a while 2-3 years to knock it out for good, so I took it 2 1/2 years and came off if successfully over a 6 months period. Sure enough after 7-8 months, the anxiety came back with a vengeance (after slowly creeping back in the form of dizziness one month, severe irritability the next, bad back pain the next), etc.
Sooooo, I now have sucked up my pride and realized I am one of those people who will probably need it forever. I had a hard time accepting that at first but I cannot keep going through life like this being miserable and homebound for months at a time. I will stay on the lex this time and hope it just never quits working on me. Sorry for the long answer- Im sure I could've cut that down, but I wanted to just show that I guess sometimes you cant fight it.