Posted 12/8/2014 4:55 AM (GMT 0)
So, finals start tomorrow. I have a major exam every day this week. I'm having a lot of trouble tonight. Lots of weird sensations and anxiety. My heart has been beating fast all day, I have a weird feeling on the right side of my face, which is odd because it is normally my left side that troubles me. I keep feeling like I am going to pass out. There is a lot riding on these exams. If I don't do well, I could potentially get removed from my program. Then I would owe $80,000 with nothing to show for it. That prospect is really weighing on me and I'm starting to crack.
To top it off, one of my study partners tonight was talking about how he wondered who was going to die in our class. Do you know how much this freaked me out? I'm started to panic and asked him why he thought that and why he would say such a thing. Ugh, it just gave me such an awful feeling. Why would he say such a thing? Just got my head spinning with horrible thoughts.
Help me get back to reality and calm down.